Erik Reuter wrote:
> (Do you have a clone, Julia? We need more like you!)
No, I don't, and frankly, I'm not sure I'd want one.
One day I was having a conversation with Marvin about my sister (they'd
worked in the same office for awhile, so they know each other) and he
said that she's a person who tries very hard to be good. (Or something
to that effect.) I don't try as hard, but I try to restrict my
not-trying to places other than this venue. Sometimes I fail. But what
you see here in e-mail is my trying to project that which is good about
me, and hide that which is not so good about me.
I have a self-image that isn't as nice/sweet/kind/good as some of the
people around me. If someone compliments me for being sweet, my initial
reation is, "But I'm not the sweet one!" (Compared to, say, my sister,
or my husband, at least in my own mind.) Marvin can attest to the fact
that I can be something of a bitch. (I'm not sure he'll *want* to
attest to that today, but I know he's seen me be a lot worse than
probably anyone else on the list has
The point being, I do my best to be as good a person as I can be on-list
and still be who I am, while in RL I'm probably not as wonderful as most
of you think I am, because I'm not trying as hard in all the facets of
my life as I am on this list. I imagine that some folks aren't trying
harder for the list than they are for the rest of their lives, and that
might make them appear to be less angelic than I, when in reality they
could be more angelic than I.
Julia
