> OK....here we go........this is where I tell things one > normally doesnt talk > about in a public forum. > > I was raised in the Catholic church and went to a Catholic school for > several years. > When I was 7 or 8 a new priest came to our parish. One day he > stopped a > group of us between classes. He sat me down on his knee and > put his arm > around me while he told everyone some story or another. Right > in front of > everyone he had his hand on my crotch, but I dont know if > anyone noticed he > was fondling me. What no one else could see was that I could feel his > (enormous to my young mind) boner throbbing against my hip. > > Even though I was pretty naiive at that age I knew that this > was wierd and I > felt very uncomfortable. This went on 5 or 10 minutes and > then he sent us > back to our class. Being the naiive child I was and possessing no > understanding of what had occured, I promptly forgot about > the incident.
Let me add my own twist on this. I was molested as well, although not by a priest - but by a typical pedophile. My thoughts at the time (11 years old) being raised in a strong religious family was that I could not let anyone know that it had happened, because I had been taught that is was the next biggest sin next to murder. I hid it, quite well for over a decade. For many years I felt strongly that I was going to hell. Since I had 'consented' to the acts (for months), this made me just as sinful as the pedophile. I lived a double life, where peers, and religious leaders put trust in me in important positions, meanwhile knowing that I had committed this terrible sin. Every thing I did for the church only made the thought worse. Talk about a dicotomy. Having been taught as well, that when people die, they can then know your history. I was terrified as I spoke to my grandfather for the last time as he was dying of cancer, that as I lied to him about how much I loved the church, that in weeks, if not days, he would know of the sin I had committed. Do I really need to describe the real crime here? Nerd going to Hell (now you know why)
