----- Original Message ----- From: "Chad Cooper" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Sent: Friday, June 21, 2002 11:35 AM Subject: RE: humour etc
> > OK....here we go........this is where I tell things one > > normally doesnt talk > > about in a public forum. > > > > I was raised in the Catholic church and went to a Catholic school for > > several years. > > When I was 7 or 8 a new priest came to our parish. One day he > > stopped a > > group of us between classes. He sat me down on his knee and > > put his arm > > around me while he told everyone some story or another. Right > > in front of > > everyone he had his hand on my crotch, but I dont know if > > anyone noticed he > > was fondling me. What no one else could see was that I could feel his > > (enormous to my young mind) boner throbbing against my hip. > > > > Even though I was pretty naiive at that age I knew that this > > was wierd and I > > felt very uncomfortable. This went on 5 or 10 minutes and > > then he sent us > > back to our class. Being the naiive child I was and possessing no > > understanding of what had occured, I promptly forgot about > > the incident. > > > Let me add my own twist on this. I was molested as well, although not by a > priest - but by a typical pedophile. My thoughts at the time (11 years old) > being raised in a strong religious family was that I could not let anyone > know that it had happened, because I had been taught that is was the next > biggest sin next to murder. I hid it, quite well for over a decade. For many > years I felt strongly that I was going to hell. Since I had 'consented' to > the acts (for months), this made me just as sinful as the pedophile. I lived > a double life, where peers, and religious leaders put trust in me in > important positions, meanwhile knowing that I had committed this terrible > sin. Every thing I did for the church only made the thought worse. Talk > about a dicotomy. Having been taught as well, that when people die, they can > then know your history. I was terrified as I spoke to my grandfather for the > last time as he was dying of cancer, that as I lied to him about how much I > loved the church, that in weeks, if not days, he would know of the sin I had > committed. > > Do I really need to describe the real crime here? No you dont. And I can only imagine how that would make you feel with the current controversy. I'm curious as to how you have dealt with this as an adult. > > Nerd going to Hell (now you know why) > I doubt it. Hell is for *bad* people. xponent Fill In The blanks Maru rob
