Louis, I am really wishing you the best.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Louis McKenzie <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > Today I passed the afternoon with my son and his mother, my wife. Recently we had a big challenge in our life. I don't know if I can say that I have passed this challenge or failed it. I know that all I could do is stay on purpose and keep my love and commitment to my wife and my family above all else. Living in Brazil as an American I do not have a lot of resources. Even I have a lot of limitation. For example because I do not have a permanent visa I can not just go out and get a job. As someone who has accepted money for investment I have certain responsibilities and limitations corporate as well as ethical, therefore for me to take a job in a country that my working without the appropriate documentation is in direct violation of the laws > of the country and can lead to immediate deportation, I have had to depend on business partners for everyday existence. > > When all of my so called partners were no longer sending money I was able to keep going for two more years, on my own creativity. Finally one day the guy from the housing court was at the door to put me and my family out of our rented apartment. WOW! even though we knew the day would possibly arrive, we were shocked. Especially since funding that had been promised for one year and held up in the current banking collapse was about to be released. > > Anyway having to leave our apartment on an unplanned day, we were subject and dependent on my wife's family. In these moments families panic and being caught off guard I did not know how to respond. Needless to say I was flabbergasted. Yet I kept my head the best I could and when I found myself and my son in the home of my mother in law, and I was being asked to leave, I felt a fear and definite hurt. Yet I > packed up my things and left. I had enough money to get a hotel room. I went to cheap hotels but they were the kind of places that would cost more than I was saving. So I found a moderate hotel. I could have gone to Rio and stayed with friends for no immediate cost, but I would not have been able to see my son every weekend or keep my presence with my family. I stayed within 10 minutes by car. > > Have you ever thought you were passing through something that was totally insane but knew you had to pass through it? That was what this has been like. > > My son was born shortly after my dad died. Even as my dad was dying I invited him to come to Brazil and fill the vacancy that was now available as my mate in Brazil was pregnant. He died in New Jersey, when I returned to Brazil and we went to Ob-Gyn the Doctor did an ultra sound and the baby waved and kicked open his > legs to show he was a boy. > > So I have always had the belief that this being may well be my dad. I could never leave my dad no matter what. So I stayed. The US Laws are stupid when it comes to immigration, illegal aliens come into the US everyday but for me to bring my family it is a great process. So not being able to do so coming back to the US was not an option for me. Getting kicked out of Brazil for deliberately breaking the law (Taking a job without documentation) would be financially irresponsible. So I have done my best with the circumstances. > > In order to resolve my life I have even had to accept ridiculous changes in the amounts of funding I was to receive. So since I was asked to leave my mother in law's home I have spent more money than I thought I could. I believe I am at the end of this process, because I believe it has been a test. Having kept my eye on the result > I have wanted I was able to buy an exceptional home . Set up various investment ventures in Real Estate such as the possibility of building homes in a city that is like the one that was mentioned in the post on earlier on the American Way. Toyota is even going to build a factory here. > > So I am writing all of this to say. Even though I may question if perhaps I am a little nuts. I have really gotten to see what happens when one puts principal ahead of security. I had received money to make an investment 3 years ago. The investors backed out they only want to know when I will give their money back or have money for them. My original partners abandoned me 3 years ago. I could have chosen to run away but I did not. In the three years from 2005 till 2008 I was able to send my step daughter to a Waldorf School and allow my wife the time to devote to our toddler. From 6 months > pregnant to 3 years old my wife was able to dedicate herself to our children. > > In Brazil this is not valued, but for me it is very important. I believe that within the next couple of days my funding will be finally in my account. I will put forth the first payment on our home and hopefully get my family back in order. This has not been easy and I pray I can let go of any resentment. I learned that I can not hold people responsible for what they do not realize. I am a guy who cleaned toilets to go to MIU, found joy in cleaning Maharishi's bedroom. Believed it to be a honor to serve John Konhaus as his personal waiter in South Falsberg , chose to work in the Kitchen in H&W as work study. Drove Limo at night while starting a real estate development company by day. Never been thought of as lazy, never been thought of as a bum. > > Yet in this last 9 months I > have been called all of the above. Sometimes believing in self and cause is a very personal thing and has very little to do with anyone else. I have had to believe in me when everyone around me was telling me I was nuts, stupid, irresponsible, you name it. Yet I kept on purpose. I kept on letting people know I am here I am on top of things I am not going away, you have to pay me. > > I don't want to talk too loud, this week I will receive my funding. > > I hope this makes sense, I hope there is something relate able for someone.I believe I just passed through an experience that many of the most successful people in our world have had to pass through. Each in his or her own way. I hope I have passed the test. > So today I passed the time with my son and his mother, I told her that in my mind she and my children deserve the best the world has to offer, and they have earned the > right to have it. For me to quit, is denying them their right. She may not understand what I am saying but I just said I will succeed and you will see. Some times these moments remind me of PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS... She thinks maybe I am nuts, and people have told her this is true. I only said when you are cleaning cars (her current job) just know in four years you never washed one car and never did anything you did not absolutely want to do. > > Just know I love you so much that I cry at the thought that you would have to do so. So we shall see what the week brings the promises have been made things are on the table. I am going forward. THANKS FOR READING... >
