Louis,
May abundant good fortune come to you and yours. Remain as
ethical as possible - you will get strength to endure by doing so.
Your thoughts are alway welcome here. A certain goodness and
sincerity permeates everything you write about, and contributes to the
a more positive tone to FFL.
- Mainstream
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "lurkernomore20002000"
<[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
>
> Louis, I am really wishing you the best.
>
>
> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Louis McKenzie <ltm457@>
> wrote:
> >
> > Today I passed the afternoon with my son and his mother, my
> wife. Recently we had a big challenge in our life. I don't know
> if I can say that I have passed this challenge or failed it. I
> know that all I could do is stay on purpose and keep my love and
> commitment to my wife and my family above all else. Living in
> Brazil as an American I do not have a lot of resources. Even I
> have a lot of limitation. For example because I do not have a
> permanent visa I can not just go out and get a job. As someone
> who has accepted money for investment I have certain
> responsibilities and limitations corporate as well as ethical,
> therefore for me to take a job in a country that my working without
> the appropriate documentation is in direct violation of the laws
> > of the country and can lead to immediate deportation, I have had
> to depend on business partners for everyday existence.
> >
> > When all of my so called partners were no longer sending money I
> was able to keep going for two more years, on my own creativity.
> Finally one day the guy from the housing court was at the door to
> put me and my family out of our rented apartment. WOW! even though
> we knew the day would possibly arrive, we were shocked. Especially
> since funding that had been promised for one year and held up in the
> current banking collapse was about to be released.
> >
> > Anyway having to leave our apartment on an unplanned day, we were
> subject and dependent on my wife's family. In these moments
> families panic and being caught off guard I did not know how to
> respond. Needless to say I was flabbergasted. Yet I kept my head
> the best I could and when I found myself and my son in the home of
> my mother in law, and I was being asked to leave, I felt a fear and
> definite hurt. Yet I
> > packed up my things and left. I had enough money to get a hotel
> room. I went to cheap hotels but they were the kind of places that
> would cost more than I was saving. So I found a moderate hotel.
> I could have gone to Rio and stayed with friends for no immediate
> cost, but I would not have been able to see my son every weekend or
> keep my presence with my family. I stayed within 10 minutes by
> car.
> >
> > Have you ever thought you were passing through something that was
> totally insane but knew you had to pass through it? That was what
> this has been like.
> >
> > My son was born shortly after my dad died. Even as my dad was
> dying I invited him to come to Brazil and fill the vacancy that was
> now available as my mate in Brazil was pregnant. He died in New
> Jersey, when I returned to Brazil and we went to Ob-Gyn the Doctor
> did an ultra sound and the baby waved and kicked open his
> > legs to show he was a boy.
> >
> > So I have always had the belief that this being may well be my
> dad. I could never leave my dad no matter what. So I stayed.
> The US Laws are stupid when it comes to immigration, illegal aliens
> come into the US everyday but for me to bring my family it is a
> great process. So not being able to do so coming back to the US was
> not an option for me. Getting kicked out of Brazil for
> deliberately breaking the law (Taking a job without documentation)
> would be financially irresponsible. So I have done my best with
> the circumstances.
> >
> > In order to resolve my life I have even had to accept ridiculous
> changes in the amounts of funding I was to receive. So since I was
> asked to leave my mother in law's home I have spent more money than
> I thought I could. I believe I am at the end of this process,
> because I believe it has been a test. Having kept my eye on the
> result
> > I have wanted I was able to buy an exceptional home . Set up
> various investment ventures in Real Estate such as the possibility
> of building homes in a city that is like the one that was mentioned
> in the post on earlier on the American Way. Toyota is even going
> to build a factory here.
> >
> > So I am writing all of this to say. Even though I may question if
> perhaps I am a little nuts. I have really gotten to see what
> happens when one puts principal ahead of security. I had received
> money to make an investment 3 years ago. The investors backed out
> they only want to know when I will give their money back or have
> money for them. My original partners abandoned me 3 years ago. I
> could have chosen to run away but I did not. In the three years
> from 2005 till 2008 I was able to send my step daughter to a Waldorf
> School and allow my wife the time to devote to our toddler. From 6
> months
> > pregnant to 3 years old my wife was able to dedicate herself to
> our children.
> >
> > In Brazil this is not valued, but for me it is very important. I
> believe that within the next couple of days my funding will be
> finally in my account. I will put forth the first payment on our
> home and hopefully get my family back in order. This has not been
> easy and I pray I can let go of any resentment. I learned that I
> can not hold people responsible for what they do not realize. I am
> a guy who cleaned toilets to go to MIU, found joy in cleaning
> Maharishi's bedroom. Believed it to be a honor to serve John
> Konhaus as his personal waiter in South Falsberg , chose to work in
> the Kitchen in H&W as work study. Drove Limo at night while
> starting a real estate development company by day. Never been
> thought of as lazy, never been thought of as a bum.
> >
> > Yet in this last 9 months I
> > have been called all of the above. Sometimes believing in self
> and cause is a very personal thing and has very little to do with
> anyone else. I have had to believe in me when everyone around me was
> telling me I was nuts, stupid, irresponsible, you name it. Yet I
> kept on purpose. I kept on letting people know I am here I am on top
> of things I am not going away, you have to pay me.
> >
> > I don't want to talk too loud, this week I will receive my
> funding.
> >
> > I hope this makes sense, I hope there is something relate able for
> someone.I believe I just passed through an experience that many of
> the most successful people in our world have had to pass through.
> Each in his or her own way. I hope I have passed the test.
> > So today I passed the time with my son and his mother, I told her
> that in my mind she and my children deserve the best the world has
> to offer, and they have earned the
> > right to have it. For me to quit, is denying them their right.
> She may not understand what I am saying but I just said I will
> succeed and you will see. Some times these moments remind me of
> PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS... She thinks maybe I am nuts, and people
> have told her this is true. I only said when you are cleaning cars
> (her current job) just know in four years you never washed one car
> and never did anything you did not absolutely want to do.
> >
> > Just know I love you so much that I cry at the thought that you
> would have to do so. So we shall see what the week brings the
> promises have been made things are on the table. I am going
> forward. THANKS FOR READING...
> >
>
