Glad result was non malignant. Even though on one level malignant would have been ok too (-:
For me that not worrying is also a kind of almost dumb trustingness. So there is an emotional quality to it but not mushy gushy emotions like before. Because every emotion contains its opposite. Like two waves canceling each other out. They both are still there, only still, vibrating with possibility. At first it can seem very odd indeed, but then it's fun. And a blessing. What a great gift it has been for me to have a sense of humor emerge just as the body is falling apart (-: ________________________________ From: Xenophaneros Anartaxius <anartax...@yahoo.com> To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Wednesday, February 20, 2013 3:10 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Capitalization, on FFL --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Xenophaneros Anartaxius" wrote: > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Share Long wrote: > > > > Xeno, I bet you can appreciate this: last week my best friend and I were > > laughing our heads off because we both thought we were having heart > > attacks. On the same day! > > > But you perhaps unintentionally raise a good question: is it better to > > live miserably or die happily? Meanwhile I say enjoy the cunning > > philosophers who think up such questions to entertain the body mind on a > > wintry day. > > > But Xeno what about this sentence: The cat is the cat. Such a sentence > > seems to be self contained and thus not needing any sensory experience to > > support its validity. Its internal logic validates it. > > Yes, this is a tautology. A statement that is always true. Self validating. > The form is 'x = x'. X can be anything, real or imaginary. It is not a > proposition because it expresses nothing. It is empty. Like enlightenment, > 'selling water by the river' as the Zen master said. True, but nothing to it. > > > Which is kind of what happens with Beingness. It is self validating. > > There is simply the living of it. Yes, it is very difficult to put into > > words. And I do think a lot of long term TMers are at this stage now. > > They are simply living Beingness. With little or no thinking about it. > > And they are experiencing it as the most ordinary thing there is. The most > > transparent thing there is. Both the most strong and the most vulnerable > > thing there is. And then one can only laugh one's head off at the > > absurdity of it all. Which I think FFL perfectly mirrors (-: > > Indeed. > Additionally (I wrote something earlier and Yahoo's software sent my response into the aether and giving me an error message), there is the phrase 'The Absolute Being' (appropriately and imposingly captialised), which as we become spiritually aware, instigates a search far and wide for that which is at all times in plain sight, hidden in total obviousness, as we puff ourselves up with our discoveries along the path which we think is there. Finally, the bubble bursts and all is well. Speaking of heart attacks. I was in the hospital the other week. A biopsy. The following week I went to the doctor's office, as they had not called. A nurse, the 'clinical supervisor' had to figure out the results from the report as the doctor was on vacation. I do not know what she was thinking, but I was just standing there knowing that the result was either malignant or not malignant, but it did not matter which because one result or the other was the only outcome, and which ever one, the course that followed was inevitable and there was no arguing with either way. This is why it is called 'the absolute being'. As it turned out, it was not malignant, but still there might be some consequences, which I have not yet been told. The mind did not go into a routine like 'oh no, I hope it is not that'. I was just standing there thinking, 'this is really fascinating, I wonder which way it will be!', as if there was some new discovery about life to unfold. The absence of worry about the future seems to be one of the major benefits of spirituality as it matures, not because you believe something will be a certain way, but because there really is no choice about which way will manifest. You just get to live the way it goes, and the mind no longer imposes its interpretation (at least most of the time), on the situation coming forward. Rather the mind becomes a tool to navigate what is happening rather than an obstacle to what is happening, resiting what is transpiring in an attempt to maintain an unrealistic world view.