Motel 108 - "We'll leave the light on for you!"
--- In [email protected], "RoryGoff" <rorygoff@...> wrote:
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> --- In [email protected], "authfriend" <authfriend@> wrote:
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> > --- In [email protected], "RoryGoff" <rorygoff@> wrote:
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> > > I am not sure he had any real choice to do it differently;
> > > it seems that I never have. For me, anyhow, Awakening rather
> > > destroyed any illusion of free will and real choice I ever
> > > had.
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> > That was most definitely what Robin has said his
> > own experience was. However, according to him,
> > the 25 years of his "de-enlightenment" project
> > enabled him to get his free will and ability to
> > choose *back*. It was apparently a titanic
> > struggle.
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> I can perhaps see what he means, to some extent, though not so much a titanic
> struggle (generally) here. At various times, I have found and taken the
> opportunity to (apparently) choose to be more and more "human" again, for the
> first time. Still not sure it was ever really much of a choice, though. Kind
> of like a choice of "stagnate/die or grow." Most of my path now seems to
> consist of integrating more and more of the "wavicles" or ego-points in my
> world, from the inside out, assuming to greater or lesser degree a vesture of
> ignorance and suffering over and over again to understand them and bring them
> home.
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