There certainly is a lot to think about in your reply, Slip- thank you. Oh, but life also has a lot of happiness, joy and silliness as well.
I mentioned boarding school days in a recent post for my own benefit, perhaps. The regimen lasted from kindergarten through 4th grade and it was a gift- probably insisted/bribed/traded by my father after my parents were divorced- in fact, my mother and father appeared as a married couple to fool the nuns when I went to the Sacred Heart convent- otherwise they would not have accepted me as one nun told me much later. They nuns found out in my father's obituary that mother was wife #2. :-) And the nuns at the hospital also called my mother first. Anyway, those orderly years were a great foundation and escape from turmoil and it dawned on me much later when raising my children- pretty much on my own. I turned into a wild charming girl growing up with plenty of dates and parties but my home life was pretty chaotic. I got tired of the women's college after two years and wanted to go to the university and my mother refused and instead let me marry so I escaped again. Hooray!!! lol I think my second marriage was also an escape! I must be a slow learner! But I do need to pray. When something unusally nice happens I immediately say, "Thank you, God" out of habit. But when things are not going so well...well, I must admit I can be belligerant in my thoughts about God- and some of it out loud. But I think it is really a loving argument. I know this must sound irrational and egotistical- to think that God is just sitting around waiting or something. Anyway, I have learned to be grateful and even hard times taught me a lot- if I didn't regard them as penance. So I hope this doesn't sound hilarious or weird to you. Guess part of me will always believe my childhood faith. On Sep 20, 6:42 pm, Slip Disc <[email protected]> wrote: > Continued................... > > Perhaps God/gods are myth and fantasy- I really don't know- except > that prayer is a gift in good times and bad for I do think there are > too many incidents and challenges in life where reason cannot provide > an answer or solution and humans simply have to "give it up/over" to a > force/wish beyond themselves. rig > > Perhaps they are, no one really knows for sure. Still I'm looking at > the lack of immediate or direct action or influence by a god. People > exhibit extraordinary effort in times of struggle and need; it doesn't > have to be on account of a belief in anything. The giving it up to a > higher power thing merely expresses one's exasperation in dealing with > a situation, the acceptance that one does not have any say in or any > control over a situation. It is like letting whatever is going to > happen happen. Let's say your dog runs out the front door and takes > off, you go in and pray that he'll return and then 2 days later he > shows up at the door. Was it the prayer or did the dog just find his > way home? Again the prayer served as a means of pacification but we > have no way of knowing if there was some higher power that guided the > dog home or if a higher power wanted you to be happy instead of sad. > > The strange thing is that life is full of sadness, misery, suffering, > anguish and uncertainty but for some reason we want to endure through > it all and through what we perceive to be a very short time, as they > say "life is very short" and late in life we all wonder "where did it > all go".
