Re: [QUAD-L] i'm so depressed i could throw up

[DeLiMiTeD4]

I dunno, bobbie. I feel that way a lot too. I hurt so bad somedays. I don't get aggrevated anymore. I simply don't accept delivery. Last Saturday, my aid invited me to go watch her daughter play softball. A bunch of nine year old girls that don't play all that well. I didn't have anything to do, so I went. Her daughter was thrilled! I was floored that anyone even cared. I watched and I saw some wonderful kids having a great time. They laughed. Some got hurt and cried. A few got mad and others just giggled and told secrets. Us, so called adults, were allowed to share and watch. I would have missed all that. Get out of the house. Go watch kids play baseball. Go shopping. Speaking as a somewhat ugly old man, I know I feel like I'd rather not wake up from time to time. But I hate getting upset more than anything else. I know that life is a gift. It isn't mine to destroy. Sometimes, it just plain sucks. If I don't try to enjoy my life, then it is my fault that it sucks.   john      In a message dated 7/12/2005 4:30:49 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes: i can't take this shit any more    i just want to fall asleeo and never wake up ever again  what am i going to miss, more agravation?