I have been feeling the same too. Just want to sleep. I fall asleep at the
computer, yet don't sleep well at night. I get out each day to take the dog
and we go on walks when its cool enough, but find myself day dreaming and
getting sleepy while doing that! I have no ambition to train Rocco.
Last week I was doing real well with that. Plus I started an acrylic paint
class here in the building which I enjoy.
I go see my rehab doc next week. Will talk to him about it.
My family has rallied around me and will be helping me financially so I can
at least get the bills paid. Its hard to even write about it because I have
paid my own way for most of my life--except when I was in the hospital when
my neck was broken, but even then got disab ility checks from work each
week.
I hate it that this has been done!!
Dana and Rocco
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----- Original Message -----
From: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>; <[email protected]>
Sent: Tuesday, July 12, 2005 6:45 PM
Subject: Re: [QUAD-L] i'm so depressed i could throw up
I dunno, bobbie. I feel that way a lot too. I hurt so bad somedays. I
don't
get aggrevated anymore. I simply don't accept delivery.
Last Saturday, my aid invited me to go watch her daughter play softball. A
bunch of nine year old girls that don't play all that well. I didn't have
anything to do, so I went. Her daughter was thrilled! I was floored that
anyone
even cared. I watched and I saw some wonderful kids having a great time.
They
laughed. Some got hurt and cried. A few got mad and others just giggled
and
told secrets. Us, so called adults, were allowed to share and watch. I
would
have missed all that.
Get out of the house. Go watch kids play baseball. Go shopping. Speaking
as
a somewhat ugly old man, I know I feel like I'd rather not wake up from
time
to time. But I hate getting upset more than anything else. I know that
life
is a gift. It isn't mine to destroy. Sometimes, it just plain sucks. If I
don't try to enjoy my life, then it is my fault that it sucks.
john
In a message dated 7/12/2005 4:30:49 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time,
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i can't take this shit any more i just want to fall asleeo and never
wake
up ever again what am i going to miss, more agravation?
