Re: My Beautiful Mandy
Julie, How are you doing? :) Wendy --- Julie Johnson <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Dear Friends, > > Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night > (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I > made the decision to end her suffering. I called my > husband and he left work right away to come home. > We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began > to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to > pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in > her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her > and holding her and talking softly to her and she > had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. > > It's been so empty the last two nights without my > little reading partner; she always liked to sit on > the bed with her upper body across my arm and her > paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since > she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the > time and she'd been reading with me every night for > weeks. > > I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; > only last week and it seems forever ago. Even > though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a > lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and > Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all > curled up together on their faux mink and listening > to their special pet music. I kept turning back to > look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We > stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I > took the carrier out of the car and set it on the > ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front > and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such > a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy > they were able to "meet". > > Thank you all for being here and for your good > thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without > you during this year of terrible losses. I have to > try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have > shared her short life. I miss her; we had our > morning routine of putting the ingredients in the > food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr > of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have > been empty, as well. You are the only ones who > understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy > of our other cats. > > Love, Julie > > > "I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more > entitled it is > to protection by man from the cruelty of man. " > > "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress > can be judged > by the way its animals are treated." > > Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948) > > > Paws Come WITH Claws!!! > > If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you > need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. > > - > Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in > one click. __ Yahoo! Mail - PC Magazine Editors' Choice 2005 http://mail.yahoo.com
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Julie, I'm so sorry to hear this. God bless little Mandy. You take care of yourself. tonya --- Julie Johnson <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Dear Friends, > > Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from > the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her > suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come > home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. > She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON > you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were > with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one > paw curled over my finger when she left us. > > It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading > partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body > across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. > Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and > she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. > > I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week > and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not > good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink > snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on > their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept > turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We > stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier > out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted > right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was > such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were > able to "meet". > > Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; > I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible > losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to > have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine > of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to > me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have > been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge > hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. > > Love, Julie > > > "I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it is > to protection by man from the cruelty of man. " > > "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged > by the way its animals are treated." > > Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948) > > > Paws Come WITH Claws!!! > > If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think > your decision to acquire a pet. > > - > Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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Dear Julie, I am so sorry for your loss. We all know the pain you are experiencing right now, it seems as if your heart truly has broken. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but only time will do that. I lost my little Mandy last December to felv and some days it seems as if it was only yesterday. You'll be in my prayers. Sheila in SC
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You are right not to force him and frighten him--all it does is cause extra stress. Have you tried an alternative vet? I urge you to think about it. - Original Message - From: Barb Moermond To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 2:26 PM Subject: Re: My Beautiful Mandy and Julie Oh Julie, I'm sending all the GLOW at my disposal to you and Jazzy... Lighting his path to the Bridge and easing your heartache. Your description of him under the covers with you reminds me of my Bandit; he's my sleepin buddy, on my hip or under the covers:). Praying that Jazzy's journey is smooth and peaceful and with you by his side to see him off. Our thoughts and love are with you both... <<<<<<<>>>>>>>> PS, good to meet you, but so very sorry about why you had to find usMatchett <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Dearest Julie, My heart goes out to you and your husband, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. My name is also Julie. I discovered this group last weekend, after getting the devasting news that my beloved cat Jazzer is sick with FeLV. I haven't had the heart to post anything yet, but I've followed everyone's comments and especially yours because our situations so closely echo each other. Jazzy started going downhill two weeks ago, and after taking him to the vet twice, they finally made the diagnosis on Saturday. I have cried my heart out since that time, but am trying to put on a brave face for Jazzy's sake. The vet suggested putting him to sleep, but I just couldn't bear the thought of that. I've brought him home now, and he spends most of his time in a cardboard box in the bedroom closet, where he seems to be fairly content. He's still purring softly when I pet him, but shows no interest in food and not much more in drinking water. The vet prescribed Prednisone for him to try and stimulate his appetite. He fought us tooth and claw with the pills - he hates getting things crammed down his throat (I can't blame him - he's always been such an independent kitty) and we tried a liquid suspension formula with no luck either. I decided last night to stop the treatment because it doesn't seem to be helping much, if at all. It was breaking my heart to see him struggle so, and when I'd go into cuddle him, he'd sort of cringe away from me - I don't want him to spend the little time he has left with me being scared. Part of me really can't believe this is happening - I'm not ready to let my Jazzy cat go. He's been my greatest love for the past 11 years, my confidante, my friend and a part of my soul. I go to bed at night, and I keep expecting him to jump up and nudge my face like he does in the middle of the night, to let him under the covers. He's slept with me faithfully every night for years and I'm so used to falling asleep with his soft little purr in my ear and his warmth against my body. My heart is absolutely breaking apart...I want to thank you all for this support group - after reading all your posts, I can't think of a more supportive, warm, caring group of people. Even behind the scenes, you have all been a source of comfort to me, knowing that there are other people in this world who are feeling and coping with the same things that I am right now. God bless you all, keep your kitties safe and loved, give them tons of hugs and velvet paw kisses, and please, please, pray for my little Jazzy cat. Love to all, JulieBarb+Smoky the House Puma+El Bandito Malito"My cat the clown: paying no mind to whom he should impress. Merely living his life, doing what pleases him, and making me smile." - Anonymous Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
Re: My Beautiful Mandy
Mandy is still with you. If she hasn't visited yet, she will and she will surround you with all the love a little cat can give. - Original Message - From: Julie Johnson To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 10:02 AM Subject: My Beautiful Mandy Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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I'm so sorry for your loss Julie. Even when we know it's coming, it's still so hard to let them go. May you find peace. Jennhttp://ucat.ushttp://ucat.us/domesticcatlinks.htmlAdopt a cat from UCAT rescue:http://ucat.us/adopt.html Adopt a FIV+ cat: http://ucat.us/AWrescue/FIV/http://ucat.us/FIVadopt.htmlAdopt a FELV+ cat:http://ucat.us/FELVadopt.html"Saving one animal won't make a difference in the world, but it will make a world of difference for that one animal."~~~I collect KMR kitten formula labels for Bazil, a 3 yr old special needs cat who must live on a liquid diet for the rest of his life.Bazil's caretaker collects labels and sends them to KMR, where they add up until she earns a free can of formula!PLEASE save your KMR kitten formula labels for Bazil! If you use KMR, even just one can, please ask me for the mailing address you can send them to, to help feed Bazil! No virus found in this outgoing message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.362 / Virus Database: 267.12.5/150 - Release Date: 10/27/2005
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How sad! I'm so sorry you lost her, but I know that you loved her, and she is at peace now. It's never easy when it's time to let them go. Big hugs to you. Goodnight, sweet Mandy... =^..^= Terri, Siggie the Tomato Vampire, Guinevere, Sammi, Travis, and 6 furangels: RuthieGirl, Samantha, Arielle, Gareth, Alec & Salome' =^..^= Furkid Photos! http://mysite.verizon.net/vze7sgqa/My Personal Page: http://www.geocities.com/ruthiegirl1/terrispage.html?1083970447350 - Original Message - From: Julie Johnson To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 10:02 AM Subject: My Beautiful Mandy Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
RE: My Beautiful Mandy
Dearest Julie and Mandy- I am so very sorry that Mandy has passed. It physically hurts to think how much you are missing Mandy. I know how much Mandy means to you… like everyone on the list, we know exactly how painful and empty it feels to lose our babies. Julie, it might not seem like it is.. but Mandy’s souls is still right besides you.. She is no longer in pain, and she is probably feeling much better about everything.. or at least that’s what I heard whenever I talked to the ones passed when I talked to them via my AC – they all tell me – don’t think this is an absolute end.. but rather beginning to something better… and don’t think that we can never talk.. because we can… just because we can’t see them.. it does not mean they are there for you.. Hideyo From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 12:18 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: My Beautiful Mandy Oh Julie, I'm so sorry you've lost your sweet Mandy. We do all know how excruciatingly difficult that empty space left by our loved ones is to bear. How the things they were so much a part of, like reading and fixing meals, even the time of day when we'd give them their meds is difficult to get through. When I lost Grace, it took me so long to clear her remedies from the fridge. The finality, (at least on this plane), is so hard to face. It's seems especially hard when we've spent so much of our energy, love and time doting on them, caring for them, struggling against all odds to find answers that will help them stay, just a little bit longer. No matter how we lose them, their absence is like an open wound. Time is not the only element that is necessary to help you and your family to heal, but no matter how difficult the processes, no matter how long it takes, it will begin to heal. We are still here, there are others that need us, we have no choice but to move on. We keep our Angels in our thoughts, and in our hearts, they never really leave us. Even though the wound does heal, our lives are never the same, they've left their mark on our hearts with their love. Someday, you'll run your finger against that scar and even if you continue to shed tears, they'll be accompanied by a smile. I believe that day is a happy one for our lost loved ones. The day when we can look back over the memories with more gratitude than grief, with more joy than pain, the day when we can forgive ourselves for not having the power to make them 'all better', is a glorious day for our babies in spirit. You've sent me so many hugs. Now, I'm sending them to you. Please know you and your husband, Mandy and Wink and all your babies are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry for your sorrow. You are not alone, we do all understand. Think of yourself surrounded in love, because you are. Add our tears to yours until the pain is finally washed clean, much love to you, Nina Julie Johnson wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food
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Julie, I'm glad you found this site. It has been a God-send for me in the past week while my cat Cricket is sick. Cricket is doing much like your Jazzy; lying in our bedroom in a corner behind a plant. I think they may be twins the way you describe Jazzy: fighting the pills, purring softly, disinterested in food/water. I'm not ready to let Cricket go yet and since he has been up and down for the past ten+ days, I am still holding out hope. I know you've probably read the posts on ImmunoRegulin. I will let you know asap how Cricket fares with the injections. His hemocrit is horribly low. The post before mine about seeing a specialist might help you put your mind at ease. At least you'll know exactly what your treatment options are for Jazzy. I'm weighing a blood transfusion right now, but it's so expensive and may only prolong his life a little. It's horrible when someone you love wastes away in front of your eyes. Cricket has been a source of my laughter for the past 4 and a half years. He is a unique cat. He likes riding in the car and getting into the shower with me. Maybe he thinks he's a dog. lol. I understand your heartache and am sending prayers and peace to Jazzy and you. :) Wendy __ Yahoo! Mail - PC Magazine Editors' Choice 2005 http://mail.yahoo.com
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Hi Julie, I too had a felv+ named Jazzy. The picture you paint of your life shared with Jazz brought tears to my eyes. You are so blessed to have found such a wonderful soul mate to share your love. What a wonderful little man he is! I'm not clear about what is going on with Jazz. The vet you brought him too does not sound like he is qualified to help. He may be a wonderful vet for most things, but when it comes to dealing with the complications of felv you need a specialist. I understand that there sometimes comes a time when the decision is made to allow our babies to pass, but if you haven't come to that point, if you are still looking for answers that may help Jazz, you need to see a specialist. Find a board certified Internist and beg them to see Jazzy asap. You can ask your vet to refer you to one, or you could call the emergency clinic in your area and find out who they recommend. Whatever you decide, you need to find someone that is willing to diagnose whatever is going on with Jazz and help you decide what the best course of action should be. You said you've been reading the posts, you must realize by now that our Angels don't die from felv itself, they succumb to other illnesses and cancers because their immune systems are weakened as a condition of the felv. Many times they can be helped to get better. You need to move on this quickly though, time is of the essence. Whatever you decide to do, thank you for posting about the mutual love you share with your very special Jazzier man. It always warms my heart to know there are others out there that also share such a deep interspecies bond. Julie, you are not alone, we all understand, I'm praying for answers and many more loving hours for you and your Jazz Nina Matchett wrote: Dearest Julie, My heart goes out to you and your husband, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. My name is also Julie. I discovered this group last weekend, after getting the devasting news that my beloved cat Jazzer is sick with FeLV. I haven't had the heart to post anything yet, but I've followed everyone's comments and especially yours because our situations so closely echo each other. Jazzy started going downhill two weeks ago, and after taking him to the vet twice, they finally made the diagnosis on Saturday. I have cried my heart out since that time, but am trying to put on a brave face for Jazzy's sake. The vet suggested putting him to sleep, but I just couldn't bear the thought of that. I've brought him home now, and he spends most of his time in a cardboard box in the bedroom closet, where he seems to be fairly content. He's still purring softly when I pet him, but shows no interest in food and not much more in drinking water. The vet prescribed Prednisone for him to try and stimulate his appetite. He fought us tooth and claw with the pills - he hates getting things crammed down his throat (I can't blame him - he's always been such an independent kitty) and we tried a liquid suspension formula with no luck either. I decided last night to stop the treatment because it doesn't seem to be helping much, if at all. It was breaking my heart to see him struggle so, and when I'd go into cuddle him, he'd sort of cringe away from me - I don't want him to spend the little time he has left with me being scared. Part of me really can't believe this is happening - I'm not ready to let my Jazzy cat go. He's been my greatest love for the past 11 years, my confidante, my friend and a part of my soul. I go to bed at night, and I keep expecting him to jump up and nudge my face like he does in the middle of the night, to let him under the covers. He's slept with me faithfully every night for years and I'm so used to falling asleep with his soft little purr in my ear and his warmth against my body. My heart is absolutely breaking apart...I want to thank you all for this support group - after reading all your posts, I can't think of a more supportive, warm, caring group of people. Even behind the scenes, you have all been a source of comfort to me, knowing that there are other people in this world who are feeling and coping with the same things that I am right now. God bless you all, keep your kitties safe and loved, give them tons of hugs and velvet paw kisses, and please, please, pray for my little Jazzy cat. Love to all, Julie
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Oh Julie, I'm sending all the GLOW at my disposal to you and Jazzy... Lighting his path to the Bridge and easing your heartache. Your description of him under the covers with you reminds me of my Bandit; he's my sleepin buddy, on my hip or under the covers:). Praying that Jazzy's journey is smooth and peaceful and with you by his side to see him off. Our thoughts and love are with you both... <<< PS, good to meet you, but so very sorry about why you had to find usMatchett <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Dearest Julie, My heart goes out to you and your husband, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. My name is also Julie. I discovered this group last weekend, after getting the devasting news that my beloved cat Jazzer is sick with FeLV. I haven't had the heart to post anything yet, but I've followed everyone's comments and especially yours because our situations so closely echo each other. Jazzy started going downhill two weeks ago, and after taking him to the vet twice, they finally made the diagnosis on Saturday. I have cried my heart out since that time, but am trying to put on a brave face for Jazzy's sake. The vet suggested putting him to sleep, but I just couldn't bear the thought of that. I've brought him home now, and he spends most of his time in a cardboard box in the bedroom closet, where he seems to be fairly content. He's still purring softly when I pet him, but shows no interest in food and not much more in drinking water. The vet prescribed Prednisone for him to try and stimulate his appetite. He fought us tooth and claw with the pills - he hates getting things crammed down his throat (I can't blame him - he's always been such an independent kitty) and we tried a liquid suspension formula with no luck either. I decided last night to stop the treatment because it doesn't seem to be helping much, if at all. It was breaking my heart to see him struggle so, and when I'd go into cuddle him, he'd sort of cringe away from me - I don't want him to spend the little time he has left with me being scared. Part of me really can't believe this is happening - I'm not ready to let my Jazzy cat go. He's been my greatest love for the past 11 years, my confidante, my friend and a part of my soul. I go to bed at night, and I keep expecting him to jump up and nudge my face like he does in the middle of the night, to let him under the covers. He's slept with me faithfully every night for years and I'm so used to falling asleep with his soft little purr in my ear and his warmth against my body. My heart is absolutely breaking apart...I want to thank you all for this support group - after reading all your posts, I can't think of a more supportive, warm, caring group of people. Even behind the scenes, you have all been a source of comfort to me, knowing that there are other people in this world who are feeling and coping with the same things that I am right now. God bless you all, keep your kitties safe and loved, give them tons of hugs and velvet paw kisses, and please, please, pray for my little Jazzy cat. Love to all, JulieBarb+Smoky the House Puma+El Bandito Malito"My cat the clown: paying no mind to whom he should impress. Merely living his life, doing what pleases him, and making me smile."- Anonymous Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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Oh Julie, I'm so sorry you've lost your sweet Mandy. We do all know how excruciatingly difficult that empty space left by our loved ones is to bear. How the things they were so much a part of, like reading and fixing meals, even the time of day when we'd give them their meds is difficult to get through. When I lost Grace, it took me so long to clear her remedies from the fridge. The finality, (at least on this plane), is so hard to face. It's seems especially hard when we've spent so much of our energy, love and time doting on them, caring for them, struggling against all odds to find answers that will help them stay, just a little bit longer. No matter how we lose them, their absence is like an open wound. Time is not the only element that is necessary to help you and your family to heal, but no matter how difficult the processes, no matter how long it takes, it will begin to heal. We are still here, there are others that need us, we have no choice but to move on. We keep our Angels in our thoughts, and in our hearts, they never really leave us. Even though the wound does heal, our lives are never the same, they've left their mark on our hearts with their love. Someday, you'll run your finger against that scar and even if you continue to shed tears, they'll be accompanied by a smile. I believe that day is a happy one for our lost loved ones. The day when we can look back over the memories with more gratitude than grief, with more joy than pain, the day when we can forgive ourselves for not having the power to make them 'all better', is a glorious day for our babies in spirit. You've sent me so many hugs. Now, I'm sending them to you. Please know you and your husband, Mandy and Wink and all your babies are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry for your sorrow. You are not alone, we do all understand. Think of yourself surrounded in love, because you are. Add our tears to yours until the pain is finally washed clean, much love to you, Nina Julie Johnson wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie "I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it is to protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated." Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948) Paws Come WITH Claws!!! If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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Julie, What do you say to someone who's heart is broken? This may sound a little odd, but I remember this poem from when I tried out for drill team in high school and didn't make it. I know you are no longer a child, but you are a child of God. PRAYER Lord, you have taught me to accept defeat To taste the bitter when I sought the sweet Knowing the longest night brings hopeful dawn, I gather up the pieces and go on. Now, let your Spirit tell me how to treat A child whose dreams lie broken at her feet; How to share the hard-earned wisdom and the calm, The confidence, to be her sore heart's balm? She's tender, Lord, Her hurts hurt more than mine. She's young, and thinks the sun will never shine. Just yesterday, she laughed, and walked in clover... Teach her tomorrow is for starting over. -- Author: Helene Lewis Coffer Julie, I hope you find some comfort from the words that everyone has written. It's wonderful that you were able to be with Mandy when she passed; I know she wasn't as scared because you were there. That is my one wish for Cricket if he doesn't make it. I don't want him to be alone. You will get through this Julie. :) Wendy __ Yahoo! FareChase: Search multiple travel sites in one click. http://farechase.yahoo.com
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Dearest Julie, My heart goes out to you and your husband, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. My name is also Julie. I discovered this group last weekend, after getting the devasting news that my beloved cat Jazzer is sick with FeLV. I haven't had the heart to post anything yet, but I've followed everyone's comments and especially yours because our situations so closely echo each other. Jazzy started going downhill two weeks ago, and after taking him to the vet twice, they finally made the diagnosis on Saturday. I have cried my heart out since that time, but am trying to put on a brave face for Jazzy's sake. The vet suggested putting him to sleep, but I just couldn't bear the thought of that. I've brought him home now, and he spends most of his time in a cardboard box in the bedroom closet, where he seems to be fairly content. He's still purring softly when I pet him, but shows no interest in food and not much more in drinking water. The vet prescribed Prednisone for him to try and stimulate his appetite. He fought us tooth and claw with the pills - he hates getting things crammed down his throat (I can't blame him - he's always been such an independent kitty) and we tried a liquid suspension formula with no luck either. I decided last night to stop the treatment because it doesn't seem to be helping much, if at all. It was breaking my heart to see him struggle so, and when I'd go into cuddle him, he'd sort of cringe away from me - I don't want him to spend the little time he has left with me being scared. Part of me really can't believe this is happening - I'm not ready to let my Jazzy cat go. He's been my greatest love for the past 11 years, my confidante, my friend and a part of my soul. I go to bed at night, and I keep expecting him to jump up and nudge my face like he does in the middle of the night, to let him under the covers. He's slept with me faithfully every night for years and I'm so used to falling asleep with his soft little purr in my ear and his warmth against my body. My heart is absolutely breaking apart...I want to thank you all for this support group - after reading all your posts, I can't think of a more supportive, warm, caring group of people. Even behind the scenes, you have all been a source of comfort to me, knowing that there are other people in this world who are feeling and coping with the same things that I am right now. God bless you all, keep your kitties safe and loved, give them tons of hugs and velvet paw kisses, and please, please, pray for my little Jazzy cat. Love to all, Julie
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Julie, I am so sorry. How wonderful that you have some good tiimes to remember even as she neared the end. I know what you mean when you say "empty" and my thoughts are with you and with her.Julie Johnson <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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Oh Julie, What a heartwarming tribute to your sweet Mandy. I'm so very glad that her passing was peaceful and that you and your husband were both able to see her off to the Bridge. I do understand the hole she left behind; a member of your family has passed, it's as simple and as painful as that. Our thoughts and tears are with you and your husband and your furkids. <>>>Julie Johnson <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. Barb+Smoky the House Puma+El Bandito Malito"My cat the clown: paying no mind to whom he should impress. Merely living his life, doing what pleases him, and making me smile."- Anonymous Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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Oh, Julie, big big hugs to you. Mandy was a sweetness in your life you will treasure always. She had your love when she needed it most. My sympathy to you and your hubby. Del - Original Message - From: Julie Johnson To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 9:02 AM Subject: My Beautiful Mandy Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click.
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I am so, so sorry. You are going through hell. Michelle
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Julie, I am so sorry for your loss, that is the way my Snowball went, he was bleeding from the mouth and the nose...it is horrible and a terrible thing to witness I still have visions and it was almost a year now. Just think Mandy and Snowball are now basking in the sun and romping in the fields with all of our other beloved furrbabies that have crossed over the Bridge. My heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your loss. CherieJulie Johnson <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. Have a purrfect day Cherie
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Title: Message Oh Julie, I'm crying with you. I'm terribly sorry. Nothing I can say will take away the ache in your heart. When it all gets too much, hold on to the beautiful life and the happy times you and Mandy shared. And that she was loved and cared for right to the end. Your sweet furball couldn't have found a more loving home than yours. But I know how terribly hard it is. They have a place in our hearts forever, and Mandy will forever hold a special place in yours. You're so rightonly the good folks here understand the connection and love that we have for our furballs and the pain of loss when they leave. We're all here for you, and aching with you and your husband. Much love and many hugs, and know that I'm thinking of you, and praying you find comfort in all the joy you gave sweet Mandy, and the good and fun times you shared. Kerry -Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Julie JohnsonSent: Thursday, October 27, 2005 9:03 AMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: My Beautiful Mandy Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us. It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been reading with me every night for weeks. I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet". Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in our home despite the joy of our other cats. Love, Julie"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it isto protection by man from the cruelty of man. " "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)Paws Come WITH Claws!!!If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your decision to acquire a pet. Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. =00IRS CIRCULAR 230 NOTICE. Any advice expressed above as to tax matters was neither written nor intended by the sender or Mayer, Brown, Rowe & Maw LLP to be used and cannot be used by any taxpayer for the purpose of avoiding tax penalties that may be imposed under U.S. tax law. If any person uses or refers to any such tax advice in promoting, marketing or recommending a partnership or other entity, investment plan or arrangement to any taxpayer, then (i) the advice was written to support the promotion or marketing (by a person other than Mayer, Brown, Rowe & Maw LLP) of that transaction or matter, and (ii) such taxpayer should seek advice based on the taxpayers particular circumstances from an independent tax advisorThis email and any files transmitted with it are intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail.
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Julie, I haven't been keeping up on my posts lately, but immediately saw yours this morning. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Mandy - such sweet memories, such caring. We all know how you feel, and the empty sense of loss - the huge hole in your heart and life, that eventually heals but never goes totally away. We are all with you in grieving for your dear baby as you have grieved for ours. Gloria At 09:02 AM 10/27/2005, you wrote: Dear Friends, Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr. She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you, but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw curled over my finger when she left us.
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Julie, I'm so sorry to hear of "Mandy's" passing. At least she passed while at home in your arms instead of a cold shelter/Vet office. Her suffering is over now and she is at peace. You and your husband did what you could for her and made her life comfortable. She knows...she loved you for it. She is at the Rainbow Bridge playing with the others until the day comes to be with you again. My heart goes all out to the both of you. Your are in my thoughts and prayers. God only knows how much we all know what it is like to lose a kitty to this horrible disease. At least these kitties had a life with us instead of elsewhere when their future unpredictable. Bless You! Terrie MohrTAZZY'S ANIMAL TRANSPORTSSIAMESE & COLLIE RESCUEOwner/DriverCheck sites for available Siameses for adoption!http://www.tazzys-siameses-collies.petfinder.org/Click Here to Join WASHINGTON SIAMESE RESCUE Yahoo Group!http://groups.yahoo.com/group/wasiameserescuehttp://hometown.aol.com/tatorbunz/index.htmlhttp://hometown.aol.com/tatorbunz/myhomepage/petmemorial.htmlPetfinder.comAdopt a Homeless Pet!http://www.petfinder.com/http://www.felineleukemia.org/http://www.petloss.com/TAZZY'S ANIMAL TRANSPORTShttps://www.paypal.com/