i know this was last weeks posting,but im 2 weeks behind in everything from a stay in the hosp with infection and pneumonia.
the original post was right on,we seem to loose a part of ourselves,when it hits us,and it makes it hard in the recovery effort,i found myself allways looking back at what i had lost in my past instead of looking ahead and trying to adjust to the future.i had a good carear and had my life where i wanted it to be,inother words i was happy as a clam.and in a split second i lost it all.i fell through the floor of a burning building fighting a fire and landed directly on my heals and had a shock wave go up through my spine.the neuros claim i probably had the virus in me before this and that was the trigger that set it off, i can remember laying in the icu for days in complete tears,because i knew from being a paramedic and having a medical knowledge that my whole life had been drastically changed,i did not want to see anyone or
talk to anybody,i bassically hated myself.with depression the first year and a half was the worst.my marriage was falling apart, on top of everything else ,being from ny we got hit on sept 11th. so i felt like the world was on my shoulders,but i beat depression with no meds and no shrink,but i do agree it takes a peice of what makes us who we are and turns us inside out,dont mean to give such a long story,but i wanted you all to know where i was coming from.its all about the future and not the past.
jeff
tm with wheel chair since 2000
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