If I could get ANYWHERE, I would go.
As I can get nowhere, it is moot.
I am paralyzed and wheelchair bound and perhaps because I can't
"pass" there is no quibbling.
The hardest thing for me was to return to work in a wheelchair and
in pain , work untold hours and week and then get fired. The next
hardest ego thing and physical thing was to do poetry readings from a
wheelchair. I couldn't move/dance/gesture as I once did. It is
harder to breathe and pull my range of voice/sound up.... that was
the ego blow.
After that, I am just glad to be here. The death/loss of friends at
such early ages --- my sister says that we were the "battering rams"
and so have suffered more physically --- makes all who remain so
very very precious to me. My college classmates raised money to help
me come home. I would love, love, love to be at the next reunion.
Akua
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