Oh My Gosh Trudy, It is so true!? We as children?learn to walk with much care from loving adults around us, but it's a natural thing for most children.? For the rest of the lives of so many it is just taken for granted and never really thought of until something changes that?for them or somebody around them.? For many it is just a temporary problem like a broken leg or something similiar, but nothing more serious than that.??
I also watch people walking.? I was born with club feet, had braces and learned to?walk with them on. ?After spraining and then breaking my ankle a couple of times as a kid, I had a lot of trouble with if?most of my life?with a lot of pain and 2 surgeries.? I had?many castings, and several removable ones as well, so there were many times that walking wasn't as easy.? It?wasn't taken for granted?by me completely, but?I remember feeling that walking could be modified for me and I wouldn't always be as active, but with care, I could do what I wanted most of the time in my pre-TM life. You know what? I have a lot of arthritis and had lots of pain in the foot prior to TM, but now without all the feeling in my foot, it doesn't hurt anymore.? One thing that has been good since TM. My grandparents worked very hard all of their lives.? My grandfather retired very close to when I got married and he was supposed to walk me down the aisle in my wedding.? He came home the last day of work, collapsed in his favorite chair and never left the house again.? He couldn't walk anymore, it broke our hearts.? He always told my grandmother that when he retired they would travel.? They'd see relatives that they missed and enjoy themselves.? When we got married we promised ourselves we'd celebrate the special times, we'd try to prepare for the future, but we'd also enjoy each year with a vacation.? For many years it was camping trips to local parks, then we'd go further.? It graduated to more and better as we could afford it, but our kids grew up vacationing in campgrounds and loved it.? When TM hit, I thought to myself, well my kids are grown, I have good insurance, I have a decent marriage and have done many things that I wanted to in life.? If I can't do them now, at least I did them.?? No regrets. Live?in the manner that you can, do what you can, regrets are not fun.? Hugs, Barbara A -----Original Message----- From: Trudy Ogilvie <[email protected]> To: Akua <[email protected]> Cc: [email protected] Sent: Fri, Jul 3, 2009 7:31 am Subject: Re: [TMIC] Class Reunions Akua wrote "If I could get ANYWHERE, I would go" I thought of all those on this list who would love so much to be able to go as Akua said, "anywhere". Here we are going on about?"not" doing something and for "what" reason and there are friends of ours on this list who do not have the choice.? ?I have at times wanted to scream at my closest friends because they could just get up and go!!?I can't carry a plate from the sink to the table. I have almost become obsessed with watching how people walk. How quickly they turn around and go thru a doorway with not a thought about it. As they say "it is what it is" ?You know that "face" we put on for people.... mine is beginning to show alot of "wear & tears"..... ? But as we have been finding?out?on?this?list?people?are?realizing?"talents?and?gifts"?they?never?knew?they?had. Blessings Trudy "You are an unrepeatable oneness" ?... ? ? Karl Rahner P.S. Found a website for "different" types of greeting cards and not that expensive. ?www.cardsbyanne.com On Thu, Jul 2, 2009 at 1:57 PM, Akua <[email protected]> wrote: . As I can get nowhere, it is moot. I am paralyzed and wheelchair bound and perhaps because I can't "pass" there is no quibbling. The hardest thing for me was to return to work ?in a wheelchair and in pain , work ?untold hours and week and then get fired. The next hardest ego thing and physical thing was to do poetry readings from a wheelchair. ?I couldn't move/dance/gesture as I once did. It is harder to breathe and pull my range of voice/sound up.... that was the ego blow. After that, I am just glad to be here. ?The death/loss of friends at such early ages --- my sister says that we were the ?"battering rams" and so have suffered more physically --- ?makes ?all who remain so very very precious to me. My college classmates raised money to help me come home. I would love, love, love to be at the next reunion. Akua --
