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After reading Denniss experiences on being exteriorized by LRH auditing several years ago I began trying to go exterior myself.
I found that I am holding so tight to my body that I am not willing while awake to move my point of view outside my body. My early ideas on exteriorizing were that it must mean that when I am obsessing over some upset in my life and tossing back and forth what had happened and what I should have done I was interiorized as in looking in. When I walk in the park and smell the roses I am exteriorized as I am looking out. I now think this is incorrect. When I first started running level 4 I hit on a classic Dianetic engram from my childhood that contained my getting hit in the head which hurt like hell while a neighbor girl said Leave me Alone. As I time broke this incident I felt terrific enthusiasm and went exterior in that incident and in my whole childhood. I can still go to the homes and streets I lived and played in at that time and see them vividly as recalls. The area had been blocked by the engram so this was an ability regained. While this win was nice it did not give me the ability to go exterior now. For instance, if I want to look at the back door of my home I can call up a picture of it that feels like a picture of the last time I looked at the door but not look at it in the here and now. A few days ago I was waking up in the morning while having a vivid dream in full Technicolor. I watched this scenery fade from vivid while I was asleep and not noticing my body to a recall while I began to notice my body. Apparently I have a compulsion to use my bodies eyes to see. The compulsion is so strong that recalls or direct thetan viewing of the world fades out when I realize I have a body and I try to do all my seeing with the bodies eyes. Have any of you noticed this mechanism? Keep on TROMing Pete
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