Re: I killed Grayson

2006-07-19 Thread Samiluke
TonyaI am so sorry. You have been through so much. Please don't blame yourself. Both of these babies at least got to leave this world loved cared for. Both Grayson his brother know that.Take care. Yvonne

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2006-07-19 Thread Kerry MacKenzie
to you, dear Tonya. Kerry. - Original Message - From: catatonya To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 4:58 AM Subject: I killed Grayson I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me

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2006-07-19 Thread Helene Hand
-Original Message- From: Helene Hand [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 12:58 PM To: 'felvtalk@felineleukemia.org' Subject: RE: I killed Grayson Oh, Tonya, a truth to hold to right now is that Grayson snuggled into your loving heart for a short time and of course

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2006-07-19 Thread Gina WN
I add my prayers for your emotional healing and gratitude for what you did for Grayson and his brother.Ginacatatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed. I had him up by my neck but

I killed Grayson

2006-07-18 Thread catatonya
I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed. I had him up by my neck but remember finding him sleeping down next to me at one point and moving him back up. I guess it didn't cross my mind at the time that he should have been

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2006-07-18 Thread Nina
Oh Honey, don't say that. You didn't kill Grayson. You didn't wake up on top of him, you woke up with him lower on your body and you moved him back up. There's no way you could possibly know he stopped breathing because you suffocated him, or because he simply stopped breathing. Even if

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2006-07-18 Thread Sherry DeHaan
Tonya please don't say that you killed him,you did so much more for him than than anyone could have.catatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed. I had him up by my neck but remember finding

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2006-07-18 Thread Kat
[EMAIL PROTECTED] Reply-To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: I killed Grayson I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed. I had him up by my neck but remember

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2006-07-18 Thread Lernermichelle
Tonya, kittens that young just die sometimes. You have no idea why he died. When I was young we tried to save a baby rabbit who had been pulled from the nest by a dog, uninjured; we bottle fed him, kept him warm, etc. and he seemed fine for 3 days. Then when my mom went to feed him in the

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2006-07-18 Thread Marylyn
of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow man. St. Francis - Original Message - From: catatonya To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 4:58 AM Subject: I killed Grayson I just woke and Grayson was dead. I

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2006-07-18 Thread moonvine
You didn't kill him. Kittens die suddenly despite our best efforts and there is nothing we can do. He died knowing he was loved. That makes a difference. - Original Message - From: catatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] Date: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 4:59 am Subject: I killed Grayson To: felvtalk

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2006-07-18 Thread Belinda
Tonya, In no way did you do anything to harm sweet little Grayson. He had surely already passed when you woke up and found him lower and like Nina said you weren't smothering him in any way. His mission in this life was short, to come in, know despair, then amazing love and caring

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2006-07-18 Thread Chris Behnke
, July 18, 2006 6:17 AM Subject: Re: I killed Grayson Oh Honey, don't say that. You didn't kill Grayson. You didn't wake up on top of him, you woke up with him lower on your body and you moved him back up. There's no way you could possibly know he stopped breathing because you suffocated him

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2006-07-18 Thread Rosenfeldt, Diane
Tonya -- Just joining in the chorus here. You have no cause to blame yourself. Please take comfort in knowing Grayson died knowing love. So many don't even have that chance. Gentle Bridge vibes for Grayson and his brother. Diane R. This electronic mail transmission and any attachments are

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2006-07-18 Thread elizamaggie
Tonya, Please don't think that! Grayson had a couple of days being fed, cuddled, and loved - something his own mother couldn't do for him. Without you he would have died alone in an abandoned house. Looking back at your posts it is obvious to see that he was not a healthy kitten to begin with.

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2006-07-18 Thread Chris
@felineleukemia.org Subject: I killed Grayson I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I smothered him. I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed. I had him up by my neck but remember finding him sleeping down next to me at one point and moving him back up. I guess it didn't cross my mind

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2006-07-18 Thread catatonya
Thanks Nina, but I killed him. I know I did. And I know it's because I was so worried about bringing in another cat and 'wished' I didn't have that problem. So now I don't. I just feel horrible. tNina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Oh Honey, don't say that. You didn't kill Grayson. You didn't wake

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2006-07-18 Thread catatonya
I did kill him though. He was doing so well. I just feel horrible.tSherry DeHaan [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Tonya please don't say that you killed him,you did so much more for him than than anyone could have.catatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: I just woke and Grayson was dead. I think I

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2006-07-18 Thread tamara stickler
Tonya hon...cats don't "smother" easily. If you had, I would assume there would be claw marks up one side of you ...or the sheets would be shredded. Isn't there the chance that he just passed peacefully in his sleep?I was to adopt a cat last spring. One week before I was to get him, he fell

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2006-07-18 Thread tamara stickler
Tonya!If wishin' could kill someone...there'd be a hell of a lot of corpses layin' around...esp... in the work places!catatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:Thanks Nina, but I killed him. I know I did. And I know it's because I was so worried about bringing in another cat and 'wished' I didn't

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2006-07-18 Thread Rosenfeldt, Diane
] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of catatonyaSent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 10:00 AMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Re: I killed Grayson Thanks Nina, but I killed him. I know I did. And I know it's because I was so worried about bringing in another cat and 'wished' I didn't have

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2006-07-18 Thread Chris
that they both died. Thats OK but its absolutely not your fault! Chris [EMAIL PROTECTED] -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of catatonya Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 11:00 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: I killed Grayson Thanks

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2006-07-18 Thread catatonya
PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of catatonyaSent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 11:00 AMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Re: I killed Grayson Thanks Nina, but I killed him. I know I did. And I know it's because I was so worried about bringing in another cat and 'wished' I

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2006-07-18 Thread Kat
Sleep soft, dear Grayson and your tiny tabby brother too. On Tue, 18 Jul 2006, catatonya wrote: Date: Tue, 18 Jul 2006 08:27:15 -0700 (PDT) From: catatonya [EMAIL PROTECTED] Reply-To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: I killed Grayson It just

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2006-07-18 Thread gblane
Tonya, I'm so sorry. I worry about that sometimes. One of my sick dogs rested her head on my dangling computer cables and died. I felt awful, like I needed to have her in a perfect room with no dangers. My dear beloved kitty Jacques, back in the early 1990's, was in the process of dying,

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2006-07-18 Thread Hideyo Yamamoto
-Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 4:18 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: I killed Grayson Oh Honey, don't say that. You didn't kill Grayson. You didn't wake up on top of him, you woke up with him lower

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2006-07-18 Thread Barb Moermond
Oh Tonya, everything that Nina said! I am so so sorry. We all know you and love you and it's OK to be sad about his passing, but please don't feel guilty.Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Oh Honey, don't say that. You didn't kill Grayson. You didn't wake up on top of him, you woke up with him lower

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2006-07-18 Thread PEC2851
Tonya, Oh sweetie, it wasn't your fault! Kittens can be so fragile and their mortality rate can seem so high. I just found outSunday what happened to 4 of the kittens I had at time of my accident. I had a beautiful, long haired mama and her 5 kittens when I had my accident. They all seemed

RE: I killed Grayson

2006-07-18 Thread Helene Hand
Oh, Tonya, a truth to hold to right now is that Grayson snuggled into your loving heart for a short time and of course you deeply mourn his passing he was not an just another kitty to care for. He may have been facing months and years of medicines, pain and limitations. His lack of

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2006-07-18 Thread etrent
be. I think you are wonderful - and thank you for caring for that precious creature. I'm so sorry for your loss. elizabeth -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Tue, 18 Jul 2006 4:58 AM Subject: I killed Grayson I just woke

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2006-07-18 Thread TenHouseCats
oh, my dearest dear: i know you can't hear all of us right now, but believe what we're all telling you: you did NOT kill grayson, you gifted him with warmth and food and safety and love. and THAT'S the only thing you smothered him with. please be gentle with yourself, and know that your role was

Re: I killed Grayson

2006-07-18 Thread TatorBunz
Tonya, You did not kill "Grayson" sometimes we can not control what god has planned for our furbabies. Grayson and his sibling were loved and you did more than anyone else would have done for them at the time of need. He has gone to be with his sibling to a placewhere he canbe whole again.

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2006-07-18 Thread Kerry Roach
Tonya, I am so sorry to hear about lil Grayson.. We all know how you feel, but you didn't kill him..we all can "what if" ourselves to no end..I have done that many times, too..And I guess we never really know..You did give him love and care for the short time he was here and he knew that..I think

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2006-07-18 Thread Marylyn
, July 18, 2006 9:59 AM Subject: Re: I killed Grayson Thanks Nina, but I killed him. I know I did. And I know it's because I was so worried about bringing in another cat and 'wished' I didn't have that problem. So now I don't. I just feel horrible. tNina [EMAIL PROTECTED

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2006-07-18 Thread Marylyn
with their fellow man. St. Francis - Original Message - From: Belinda [EMAIL PROTECTED] To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 7:50 AM Subject: Re: I killed Grayson Tonya, In no way did you do