Hiya Bob,
Some two bits from one who has run task forces, simultaneously located
in different countries.
Bob1357 wrote:
I am having a little..... no ...... a lot of difficulty today with
anger.
I gave my employees a priority list today.
A list geared so that a ten year old could understand it.
Yep.
But did you ensure that they got "your" priorities?
It is very interesting that even with the seniors in your team......how
there is a wide encompassing difference between what you are outlaying
and what is getting heard as being outlayed.
What is agreed to be done and what gets done finally is often a yawning gap.
Nothing was done in order, nothing was done correctly and most of what
I asked was not done at all.
Aah well...very familiar space.
Was it something like a day project or several days project?
Depending on how crucial the project is, I always insisted on immediate,
short term milestones.....
...so that there is a possibility of mid-course corrections/appropriate
actions to be taken.
The mile-stones could as short-term as who does what, immediately after
then meeting is over and people troop
back to their work-stations.
Or what must happen in the immediate 1 hour, mid-day, end of day,
mid-week, end of week etc etc.
You cannot monitor what you cannot measure.
Obviously the level of micro-planning depends on the complexity and
importance of the project....
....but sometimes I would insist on such mile-stones related time-lines
even in the most ordinary of projects so that we all learnt to work with
the same methodology and focus, irrespective of the importance/scope of
the project.
And each missed mile-stone.........must ring a bell somewhere.
You cannot try to plug a breach when the dam has totally cracked up.
I completely exploded when I showed up at the job site this afternoon.
I was furious.
I don't do furious and I don't explode.
So obviously, something "more" was/had got compromised.
What was that?
Perhaps things are coming to a head and I am realizing that I can not
rely on others.
That might be an assessment that needs to be made when things are more
settled...
..you may have to weed out the weeds in your team.
And start with the weeds in oneself.
After all the team that you have is the team that you had all the time
until now.
One thing that really gets me bent is the fact that they are all so
much in the dark.
Eating, drinking, fucking, and sleeping is all they seem to care
about.
Why on earth should they care about anything else?
For them, the job with you is a means to doing stuff.
Is it not so for you, just that the stuff-to-be-done may be somewhat
different to those listed?
If for you, the job.......is a completion in itself....
...then you have to show that to your team.......as the quality of oneself.
There like animals at times. Me me me mine mine mine
Perhaps I need "employees" with a raised or slightly higher
consciousness than what my current employees have.
:-))
Good luck.
Share, your pay-offs with your team and show how in your pay-off, lies
their pay-offs.
I have pointed to the problems over and over but they just don't seem
to get it or care.
Perhaps my standards are too high.
Perhaps it is all my fault for letting fuck ups and mistakes slide so
easily.
Perhaps they have learned that they can get away with what ever they
want because Bob is nice.
Yes.
How far the envelope can be pushed......is always the game getting
played out.
Why were you being nice, when faced with incompetence or neglect?
What was in it for you?
I do believe that within all this chaos there is something unraveling.
Unfortunately I am so filled with anger and a sense of betrayal that I
can not see it.
Can you see the anger and sense of betrayal?
Be with that.
And see what is it that you are really pissed off at.......what is it
that really has got betrayed.
I am confused at how I can let another influence my mood today.
Eh?
How else are any moods generated, except as an impact of an other?
I am not an angry person.
My head hurts.
Just venting, thanks to those for reading.
Sorry for being so much off the subject of non- dual, but that is one
of the things that is bothering me too.
I mean, seeing them fuck up and act so irresponsibly ...... Is that
part of me?
It's really not them........but the fuck-up that has taken place in you,
through the acts of the others.
What is that?
Do I actually have some of those qualities?
Am I to learn from this and find these hidden quirks within and
correct them?
Sure.
If you are moved to.
The other as a mirror is always something to be grateful to.......for it
is the other which exposes oneself.
Ok ...... Now my head hurts more.
Take a long walk.
And then sit with some of the finest Lagavulin and get amused with the
comedy of it all.
