I always get a warm fuzzy feeling when you address me Roomsearching.
Sadly, I must agree with you.

On Jul 29, 8:55 am, roomsearching <[email protected]> wrote:
> Marko,
>
> All you are saying for the last few hundred posts is -  "everything is a
> thought", "words cannot convey reality"
> What you mean is that you are basically confused and don't have a solution.
> I have a solution and I am giving it to you through my copy-pasted posts.
> You are just here for attention. You dont seek help. You don't seek any
> truth.
> You are arrogant and want to keep maintaining your personality.
> You are ignorant.
>
> On Thu, Jul 29, 2010 at 7:43 AM, <[email protected]> wrote:
> > RS, are you able to write something which is not a copy of some guru's
> > words or some cheap insulting? Are these your only to 'modes'?
> > Just out of curiosity
>
> > Sent via BlackBerry from Vodafone
> > ------------------------------
> > *From: * roomsearching <[email protected]>
> > *Sender: * [email protected]
> > *Date: *Thu, 29 Jul 2010 06:11:12 +0100
> > *To: *Sandeep-Kuber Technologies<[email protected]>
> > *Cc: *Advaita-Zen<[email protected]>
> > *Subject: *Re: Very angry
>
> > There is no office and there are no employees.
> > There are no responsibilities.
> > There is only the Self.
> > The whole universe resides in your heart.
> > Let the mind dive into your heart.
> > Just be.
>
> > On Thu, Jul 29, 2010 at 4:13 AM, Sandeep-Kuber Technologies <
> > [email protected]> wrote:
>
> >>  Hiya Bob,
>
> >> Some two bits from one who has run task forces, simultaneously located
> >> in different countries.
>
> >> Bob1357 wrote:
>
> >> I am having a little..... no ...... a lot of difficulty today with
> >> anger.
> >> I gave my employees a priority list today.
> >> A list geared so that a ten year old could understand it.
>
> >> Yep.
>
> >> But did you ensure that they got "your" priorities?
>
> >> It is very interesting that even with the seniors in your team......how
> >> there is a wide encompassing difference between what you are outlaying and
> >> what is getting heard as being outlayed.
>
> >> What is agreed to be done and what gets done finally is often a yawning
> >> gap.
>
> >>  Nothing was done in order, nothing was done correctly and most of what
> >> I asked was not done at all.
>
> >>  Aah well...very familiar space.
>
> >> Was it something like a day project or several days project?
>
> >> Depending on how crucial the project is, I always insisted on immediate,
> >> short term milestones.....
> >> ...so that there is a possibility of mid-course corrections/appropriate
> >> actions to be taken.
>
> >> The mile-stones could as short-term as who does what, immediately after
> >> then meeting is over and people troop
> >> back to their work-stations.
>
> >> Or what must happen in the immediate 1 hour, mid-day, end of day,
> >> mid-week, end of week etc etc.
>
> >> You cannot monitor what you cannot measure.
>
> >> Obviously the level of micro-planning depends on the complexity and
> >> importance of the project....
> >> ....but sometimes I would insist on such mile-stones related time-lines
> >> even in the most ordinary of projects so that we all learnt to work with 
> >> the
> >> same methodology and focus, irrespective of the  importance/scope of the
> >> project.
>
> >> And each missed mile-stone.........must ring  a bell somewhere.
>
> >> You cannot try to plug a breach when the dam has totally cracked up.
>
> >> I completely exploded when I showed up at the job site this afternoon.
> >> I was furious.
> >> I don't do furious and I don't explode.
>
> >> So obviously, something "more" was/had got compromised.
>
> >> What was that?
>
> >>  Perhaps things are coming to a head and I am realizing that I can not
> >> rely on others.
>
> >>  That might be an assessment that needs to be made when things are more
> >> settled...
> >> ..you may have to weed out the weeds in your team.
>
> >> And start with the weeds in oneself.
>
> >> After all the team that you have is the team that you had all the time
> >> until now.
>
> >>  One thing that really gets me bent is the fact that they are all so
> >> much in the dark.
> >> Eating, drinking, fucking, and  sleeping is all they seem to care
> >> about.
>
> >>  Why on earth should they care about anything else?
>
> >> For them, the job with you is a means to doing stuff.
>
> >> Is it not so for you, just that the stuff-to-be-done may be somewhat
> >> different to those listed?
>
> >> If for you, the  job.......is a completion in itself....
>
> >> ...then you have to show that to your team.......as the quality of
> >> oneself.
>
> >>  There like animals at times. Me me me mine mine mine
> >> Perhaps I need "employees" with a raised or slightly higher
> >> consciousness than what my current employees have.
>
> >> :-))
>
> >> Good luck.
>
> >> Share, your pay-offs with your team and show how in your pay-off, lies
> >> their pay-offs.
>
> >>  I have pointed to the problems over and over but they just don't seem
> >> to get it or care.
> >> Perhaps my standards are too high.
> >> Perhaps it is all my fault for letting fuck ups and mistakes slide so
> >> easily.
> >> Perhaps they have learned that they can get away with what ever they
> >> want because Bob is nice.
>
> >> Yes.
>
> >> How far the envelope can be pushed......is always the game getting played
> >> out.
>
> >> Why were you being nice, when faced with incompetence or neglect?
>
> >> What was in it for you?
>
> >>  I do believe that within all this chaos there is something unraveling.
> >> Unfortunately I am so filled with anger and a sense of betrayal that I
> >> can not see it.
>
> >>  Can you see the anger and sense of betrayal?
>
> >> Be with that.
>
> >> And see what is it that you are really pissed off at.......what is it that
> >> really has got betrayed.
>
> >>  I am confused at how I can let another influence my mood today.
>
> >> Eh?
>
> >> How else are any moods generated, except as an impact of an other?
>
> >>  I am not an angry person.
> >> My head hurts.
> >> Just venting, thanks to those for reading.
> >> Sorry for being so much off the subject of non- dual, but that is one
> >> of the things that is bothering me too.
> >> I mean, seeing them fuck up and act so irresponsibly ...... Is that
> >> part of me?
>
> >> It's really not them........but the fuck-up that has taken place in you,
> >> through the acts of the others.
>
> >> What is that?
>
> >>  Do I actually have some of those qualities?
> >> Am I to learn from this and find these hidden quirks within and
> >> correct them?
>
> >> Sure.
>
> >> If you are moved to.
>
> >> The other as a mirror is always something to be grateful to.......for it
> >> is the other which exposes oneself.
>
> >>  Ok ...... Now my head hurts more.
>
> >> Take a long walk.
>
> >> And then sit with some of the finest Lagavulin and get amused with the
> >> comedy of it all.

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