Up until recently, 2004 hadn't been a very good year for me. I had
serious sinus problems early this year, lost my job due to budget
cutbacks, was off two months with 0 income (when you're a Canadian
working in the US, you don't qualify for unemployment benefits in
EITHER country), then had to do an out of state move to a new job, had
a mover that didn't show up... and then to top it all off, my mother
ended up in the hospital in late March from complications from
leukemia and later died in June. I am an only child, my father passed
away in 2001, and working in the US has made it difficult to handle
the estate in Canada. I have to sell the family house because of
bills my mom had and my own debts... and packing has been a major
issue, both because I have had limited help... and that house and
everything in it is all that I have from them.
But... things are looking up. After my mother died, I met Julie. We
fell in love almost instantly, and we're soul mates. She's now my
fiancee, and we're moving in together in September and planning to be
married sometime in 2005. Despite the first half of 2004 being the
worst time in my life, I have emerged from it and am now as happy as I
have ever been.
When things are bad, don't give up. If there's no reason for you to
feel bad, either there's a chemical problem, or there's something in
your life that makes you feel that way. It is pretty obvious to me
that the depression I experienced earlier this year was situational...
not chemical. If that is the case with you, don't give up, and strive
to make things better in your life. Julie and I weren't looking for
each other; it was bad timing, to be honest... but it was VERY obvious
to both of us that we were going to be together for the rest of our
lives if we wanted it to be so... and we do.
When I am depressed, I tend to withdraw from everything and everyone.
I often tell people that when I say nothing, it's probably because I
am depressed. There's nothing WRONG with being depressed, as long as
you don't let it take over your life.
If you think that there may be a chemical reason for your depression,
get it treated.
I hope that helps you... but if it hasn't... I just hope that you can
snap out of it. Talking about it can help.
--
Sincerely,
Brian Meloche
http://www.brianmeloche.com
http://www.clevelandmmug.org (currently down)
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