chris its ok. in future rather than venting this on list. talk to me
or olivia. we're doing what we can. I've tried a fair few things for
you and I've just had no luck. people on this world just dont know,
dont care etc. whats new. we're going through the same kind of issues
together.
somehow we might come up with a solution.
so dont feel down mate. come on, chin up and something will happen.
remember. positivity rules over everything else.
there is a mantra I recommend but I cant say it on list unless people
have a sense of humour and dont mind two simple but effective words lol
lew
On 22 Apr 2008, at 16:43, Chris Gilland wrote:
Folks, I have literally tried everything. Look, I appreciate over
the past nearly week now all you all's help with this stupid peace
of excuse my language, dog shit computer, really, I just cannot
enmotionally do thjis any more. I have no effort of strength left
in me. All this getting turned down is really starting to bother
me. It's not you all, but it seems no one in the business field is
willing to get me a Mac, or help me find a donated one. I almost
went as far as to say If everyone put forth like $20 on this list,
to one responsible designated collecter who then once the funds all
were there would order the Mac and have it shipped, with all the
members we got $20 I am sure for each would do the trick, but again,
I can't ask that. That is not fair to any of you all. I just am out
of options. Lou, thank you for all your help, Same to Mike, Alivia,
and all you who directly helped, but face it: we're gett6ing no
where. My parents as a child always tought me never say never and
never give up, but I'm sorry, I can't resist now doing so. It's
been over 2 years that I've asked for one, literally since the end
of 06, and I have gotten nowhere since. I wish I had a job, but no
one in their mind wants to hier me. I'm always just the dumb idiot
who knows nothing. I barely with my income of SSI make anywhere
near enough to do much of anything. I make $600. $400 of that is
for rent/utilities, 100 or so is for cable, and another 100 is for
my cell phone, and finally about 50 for my lan line. You do the
math. O, then let's not forget about my groceries. I get $60 food
stamps, but being I spend about $100 a month on food, so that means
I gotta pay like $40 to $50 for that. See, these aren't things
want, these are the bear necessities. I don't have $700 for a Mac
to be throwing around. I'm sorry, I just don't. I put an ad up on
Craigs list and heard nothying, a friend found something in one of
his cities but the idiot won't e-mail him back. my church won't
help, Apple Care won't help, my local store won't help, United Way
won't help, Hospice won't help, Free Cycfle said this is too big of
an item and if I ever post a want for this or the like again I'll
be banned. EBay is even still too expensive, plus you never really
know what you're getting. Best Buy won't help, Circuit City won't
help, Comp USA won't help, my local library refuses to hellp, it
seems none of my close friends will help, my family won't help, I
have literally gone as far as to stand at the street end of my
driveway for 4 hours straight for 3 days in a row and when a car
would come by, I'd scream bloody murder until they stopped only then
to ask if they had one or knew someone who did. Call me mentally
insane, frankly if you do I don't give a ***. I just am a
determined individual who has worked day after day, night after
night, my arse off to get this, and cannot. I'm reaching for the
rainbow, but the potta gold's still completely out of sight, forget
about reach. I can't even put Ubuntu on this darn machine thanks to
the Mac not working well with the Ubuntu installer with Orca
speech. So, what's my final ultimate decision? Well, I'm giving
this about one more business week, so, basicly until Friday. If by
then I've not managed to scrounge of a Mac to be delivered or
shipped at no shipping cost nor cost for the PC, screw the monitor,
mouse and keyboard. I have those. I just need a frickin tower/
CPU. Anyway, I'm sorry but then I'll have no choice but to un-sub,
throw this Mac in the junk yard, oiterally speaking, the junk yard,
and probably forget about ever getting a Mac again. This is just
not worth all this hell for me. I've tried so hardly, but I'm
finally running out of patients. Not at you all, but more at where
to turn. I even called my Prepaid egal attorney lawfirm and asked
if they had any ideas and they basicly gave me the same thing, if
you want one then pay for it and quit bothering us, we got more
important civil things to deal with than listenning to you whine.
It may sound like i'm doing that but I swear on the Bible, which is
not something I do normally: I am so, not! doing that. It's just
I'm totally lost. I got an e-mail last night from someone on this
list who's name I will not reveal under any circumstances,
regardless, who told me that they'd give me Outspoken, but if I only
would use it for a week, then no way, they only give it to people
who in their exact words: Quote: need it. I cannot fu***ing tell
you how much that hurt me. I just went through experiencing a best
friend who had a death in their family, so I've been devastated over
that, then this mail comes in. You think I wanted to see that first
thing this morning? I think not thank you very much? I really did
not appreciate that at all, and don't deny it, to that individual,
you know who you are so dont' play that o it wasn't me game. Won't
be tollerated. I am sorry for working so hard, maybe I'm too
obsessed but is there a problem with someone earnestly wishing to
learn something new but being turned down from every resource to
learn it? I even tried the hacked intel x86 version which would a
worked had it not been inaccessible to install. Yeah, I hate
illegal software sharing too, and noramlly wouldn't do it, but what
do I do! I'm desperet. This is why I do it, cause no one ever
cares to help. I mean you all tried, but, looks like you all are
getting no where either. You know though what hurts more than
anything? The fact that people make funna me for my desparity
instead of praising me and giving me a good gowen for trying, etc.
Now that! hurts, right at the core of the heart! Call me sinsitive
but... you don't like it, tough! It's my personality. I am sorry
to be so blunt I know it really is no way for getting help, and I
apologise you all have to read this, but God d it? where else do I
rant! At least some a you on here care enough to try and help me,
and for those of you: thank you. But Do you all really think it's
worth continuing the voyage to look? I mean this is becoming
morbidly grewsomely rediculous! It's just a f***ing mac. It's not
God, for Christ sake!
Ooooaf, I'm p owed!
Chris.
Mr. Lewis Brock
Totally blind musician and composer of 21st century synth orchestral
music
Phone: +44 07857 352828
E-Mail: [EMAIL PROTECTED]
Skype: lewisjbrock
