Lou, I gotter mail, it's ok, bro.
Chris.
----- Original Message -----
From: "Lewis Brock" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: "General discussions on all topics relating to the use of Mac OS X by
theblind" <[email protected]>
Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2008 3:10 PM
Subject: Re: I'm sorry but I completely! give up!
karen
rather than sending directly to list. contact him privately through email
with a different subject header.
thanks
lew
On 22 Apr 2008, at 20:07, Karen Lewellen wrote:
Chris,
I have offered to help before, but you did not write me privately to
discuss your situation.
There *may* be some extra avenues, but I will need a lot more details.
I offer again, with it again being up to you to write me privately.
Karen
On Tue, 22 Apr 2008, Chris Gilland wrote:
Folks, I have literally tried everything. Look, I appreciate over the
past nearly week now all you all's help with this stupid peace of
excuse my language, dog shit computer, really, I just cannot
enmotionally do thjis any more. I have no effort of strength left in
me. All this getting turned down is really starting to bother me.
It's not you all, but it seems no one in the business field is willing
to get me a Mac, or help me find a donated one. I almost went as far as
to say If everyone put forth like $20 on this list, to one responsible
designated collecter who then once the funds all were there would order
the Mac and have it shipped, with all the members we got $20 I am sure
for each would do the trick, but again, I can't ask that. That is not
fair to any of you all. I just am out of options. Lou, thank you for
all your help, Same to Mike, Alivia, and all you who directly helped,
but face it: we're gett6ing no where. My parents as a child always
tought me never say never and never give up, but I'm sorry, I can't
resist now doing so. It's been over 2 years that I've asked for one,
literally since the end of 06, and I have gotten nowhere since. I wish
I had a job, but no one in their mind wants to hier me. I'm always
just the dumb idiot who knows nothing. I barely with my income of SSI
make anywhere near enough to do much of anything. I make $600. $400
of that is for rent/utilities, 100 or so is for cable, and another 100
is for my cell phone, and finally about 50 for my lan line. You do the
math. O, then let's not forget about my groceries. I get $60 food
stamps, but being I spend about $100 a month on food, so that means I
gotta pay like $40 to $50 for that. See, these aren't things want,
these are the bear necessities. I don't have $700 for a Mac to be
throwing around. I'm sorry, I just don't. I put an ad up on Craigs
list and heard nothying, a friend found something in one of his cities
but the idiot won't e-mail him back. my church won't help, Apple Care
won't help, my local store won't help, United Way won't help, Hospice
won't help, Free Cycfle said this is too big of an item and if I ever
post a want for this or the like again I'll be banned. EBay is even
still too expensive, plus you never really know what you're getting.
Best Buy won't help, Circuit City won't help, Comp USA won't help, my
local library refuses to hellp, it seems none of my close friends will
help, my family won't help, I have literally gone as far as to stand at
the street end of my driveway for 4 hours straight for 3 days in a row
and when a car would come by, I'd scream bloody murder until they
stopped only then to ask if they had one or knew someone who did. Call
me mentally insane, frankly if you do I don't give a ***. I just am a
determined individual who has worked day after day, night after night,
my arse off to get this, and cannot. I'm reaching for the rainbow, but
the potta gold's still completely out of sight, forget about reach. I
can't even put Ubuntu on this darn machine thanks to the Mac not
working well with the Ubuntu installer with Orca speech. So, what's my
final ultimate decision? Well, I'm giving this about one more business
week, so, basicly until Friday. If by then I've not managed to
scrounge of a Mac to be delivered or shipped at no shipping cost nor
cost for the PC, screw the monitor, mouse and keyboard. I have those.
I just need a frickin tower/ CPU. Anyway, I'm sorry but then I'll have
no choice but to un-sub, throw this Mac in the junk yard, oiterally
speaking, the junk yard, and probably forget about ever getting a Mac
again. This is just not worth all this hell for me. I've tried so
hardly, but I'm finally running out of patients. Not at you all, but
more at where to turn. I even called my Prepaid egal attorney lawfirm
and asked if they had any ideas and they basicly gave me the same
thing, if you want one then pay for it and quit bothering us, we got
more important civil things to deal with than listenning to you whine.
It may sound like i'm doing that but I swear on the Bible, which is not
something I do normally: I am so, not! doing that. It's just I'm
totally lost. I got an e-mail last night from someone on this list
who's name I will not reveal under any circumstances, regardless, who
told me that they'd give me Outspoken, but if I only would use it for a
week, then no way, they only give it to people who in their exact
words: Quote: need it. I cannot fu***ing tell you how much that hurt
me. I just went through experiencing a best friend who had a death in
their family, so I've been devastated over that, then this mail comes
in. You think I wanted to see that first thing this morning? I think
not thank you very much? I really did not appreciate that at all, and
don't deny it, to that individual, you know who you are so dont' play
that o it wasn't me game. Won't be tollerated. I am sorry for working
so hard, maybe I'm too obsessed but is there a problem with someone
earnestly wishing to learn something new but being turned down from
every resource to learn it? I even tried the hacked intel x86 version
which would a worked had it not been inaccessible to install. Yeah, I
hate illegal software sharing too, and noramlly wouldn't do it, but
what do I do! I'm desperet. This is why I do it, cause no one ever
cares to help. I mean you all tried, but, looks like you all are
getting no where either. You know though what hurts more than
anything? The fact that people make funna me for my desparity instead
of praising me and giving me a good gowen for trying, etc. Now that!
hurts, right at the core of the heart! Call me sinsitive but... you
don't like it, tough! It's my personality. I am sorry to be so blunt
I know it really is no way for getting help, and I apologise you all
have to read this, but God d it? where else do I rant! At least some a
you on here care enough to try and help me, and for those of you:
thank you. But Do you all really think it's worth continuing the
voyage to look? I mean this is becoming morbidly grewsomely
rediculous! It's just a f***ing mac. It's not God, for Christ sake!
Ooooaf, I'm p owed!
Chris.
Mr. Lewis Brock
Totally blind musician and composer of 21st century synth orchestral
music
Phone: +44 07857 352828
E-Mail: [EMAIL PROTECTED]
Skype: lewisjbrock
