Man you need to write for a newspaper or something. You definitely have good
oral and written skills. Have you tried something in the writing field?
----- Original Message -----
From: "Chris Gilland" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[email protected]>
Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2008 11:43 AM
Subject: I'm sorry but I completely! give up!
Folks, I have literally tried everything. Look, I appreciate over the
past nearly week now all you all's help with this stupid peace of excuse
my language, dog shit computer, really, I just cannot enmotionally do
thjis any more. I have no effort of strength left in me. All this
getting turned down is really starting to bother me. It's not you all,
but it seems no one in the business field is willing to get me a Mac, or
help me find a donated one. I almost went as far as to say If everyone
put forth like $20 on this list, to one responsible designated collecter
who then once the funds all were there would order the Mac and have it
shipped, with all the members we got $20 I am sure for each would do the
trick, but again, I can't ask that. That is not fair to any of you all. I
just am out of options. Lou, thank you for all your help, Same to Mike,
Alivia, and all you who directly helped, but face it: we're gett6ing no
where. My parents as a child always tought me never say never and never
give up, but I'm sorry, I can't resist now doing so. It's been over 2
years that I've asked for one, literally since the end of 06, and I have
gotten nowhere since. I wish I had a job, but no one in their mind wants
to hier me. I'm always just the dumb idiot who knows nothing. I barely
with my income of SSI make anywhere near enough to do much of anything. I
make $600. $400 of that is for rent/utilities, 100 or so is for cable,
and another 100 is for my cell phone, and finally about 50 for my lan
line. You do the math. O, then let's not forget about my groceries. I
get $60 food stamps, but being I spend about $100 a month on food, so that
means I gotta pay like $40 to $50 for that. See, these aren't things
want, these are the bear necessities. I don't have $700 for a Mac to be
throwing around. I'm sorry, I just don't. I put an ad up on Craigs list
and heard nothying, a friend found something in one of his cities but the
idiot won't e-mail him back. my church won't help, Apple Care won't help,
my local store won't help, United Way won't help, Hospice won't help, Free
Cycfle said this is too big of an item and if I ever post a want for this
or the like again I'll be banned. EBay is even still too expensive, plus
you never really know what you're getting. Best Buy won't help, Circuit
City won't help, Comp USA won't help, my local library refuses to hellp,
it seems none of my close friends will help, my family won't help, I have
literally gone as far as to stand at the street end of my driveway for 4
hours straight for 3 days in a row and when a car would come by, I'd
scream bloody murder until they stopped only then to ask if they had one
or knew someone who did. Call me mentally insane, frankly if you do I
don't give a ***. I just am a determined individual who has worked day
after day, night after night, my arse off to get this, and cannot. I'm
reaching for the rainbow, but the potta gold's still completely out of
sight, forget about reach. I can't even put Ubuntu on this darn machine
thanks to the Mac not working well with the Ubuntu installer with Orca
speech. So, what's my final ultimate decision? Well, I'm giving this
about one more business week, so, basicly until Friday. If by then I've
not managed to scrounge of a Mac to be delivered or shipped at no shipping
cost nor cost for the PC, screw the monitor, mouse and keyboard. I have
those. I just need a frickin tower/CPU. Anyway, I'm sorry but then I'll
have no choice but to un-sub, throw this Mac in the junk yard, oiterally
speaking, the junk yard, and probably forget about ever getting a Mac
again. This is just not worth all this hell for me. I've tried so
hardly, but I'm finally running out of patients. Not at you all, but more
at where to turn. I even called my Prepaid egal attorney lawfirm and
asked if they had any ideas and they basicly gave me the same thing, if
you want one then pay for it and quit bothering us, we got more important
civil things to deal with than listenning to you whine. It may sound like
i'm doing that but I swear on the Bible, which is not something I do
normally: I am so, not! doing that. It's just I'm totally lost. I got an
e-mail last night from someone on this list who's name I will not reveal
under any circumstances, regardless, who told me that they'd give me
Outspoken, but if I only would use it for a week, then no way, they only
give it to people who in their exact words: Quote: need it. I cannot
fu***ing tell you how much that hurt me. I just went through experiencing
a best friend who had a death in their family, so I've been devastated
over that, then this mail comes in. You think I wanted to see that first
thing this morning? I think not thank you very much? I really did not
appreciate that at all, and don't deny it, to that individual, you know
who you are so dont' play that o it wasn't me game. Won't be tollerated.
I am sorry for working so hard, maybe I'm too obsessed but is there a
problem with someone earnestly wishing to learn something new but being
turned down from every resource to learn it? I even tried the hacked
intel x86 version which would a worked had it not been inaccessible to
install. Yeah, I hate illegal software sharing too, and noramlly wouldn't
do it, but what do I do! I'm desperet. This is why I do it, cause no one
ever cares to help. I mean you all tried, but, looks like you all are
getting no where either. You know though what hurts more than anything?
The fact that people make funna me for my desparity instead of praising me
and giving me a good gowen for trying, etc. Now that! hurts, right at the
core of the heart! Call me sinsitive but... you don't like it, tough!
It's my personality. I am sorry to be so blunt I know it really is no way
for getting help, and I apologise you all have to read this, but God d it?
where else do I rant! At least some a you on here care enough to try and
help me, and for those of you: thank you. But Do you all really think
it's worth continuing the voyage to look? I mean this is becoming
morbidly grewsomely rediculous! It's just a f***ing mac. It's not God,
for Christ sake!
Ooooaf, I'm p owed!
Chris.
