--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Duveyoung <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > Right on, Jimmy! > > Thou shall not kill. > > Pretty simple to understand, almost impossible to be perfect at. > > I'm going to get a half a coconut shell, a diaper and a walking staff. > Can you imagine the first-person-I-went-up-to's response as I begged > for my daily ration of rice? > > It seems just about impossible to be a good person if there's a car in > the garage, an article of clothing in the closet, or even "eggs for > breakfast." > > I keep searching for the words to turn my life around when I need a > good dose of seeing just one child die in a ditch in Dafur. > > Who can claim integrity in today's world? Only in the poorest places > might we find such a person. > > Who's looking? > > Edg > Hi Edg, I find your writing most often evocative, but hard to respond to-- not a bad thing let me explain: You try to write the way you think and like all of us it is frequently non-linear. Which I like because it is as much art as exposition...
Anyway, I read your post, and then about the third time around I had a reply: You often write about our (the population here on earth) inadequacy to deal with the so called horrors of this world, and I'm thinking, compared to what? I've found stuff inside me that initially appeared to equal or surpass the worst excesses of human thought and action. The reason I say initially, is that it is always very much the snake and string experience; once I look that scary stuff that makes me feel bad in the face, it goes all neutral and powerless, and becomes magically inconsequential. So based on my thought experiments of late, my hypothesis is that the effect any negative event sustains in us is a direct reflection of some resonant energy, to that event, we are carrying around within ourselves. The reason I say sustains is because we are not dead-- we all have feelings and passion, but when we begin to over balance in the direction of a sustained negative feeling, you can bet that bell is ringing because of a similar emotion we are carrying around within. This is how a recent experiment on me went. I would feel an emotion blooming, and as it did I would think the thought innocently, "I forgive myself for feeling [for example, shame/guilt/inferior/superior] about [event/name/etc]." As an interesting aside, when I would name the emotion and it matched, I would get like a shiver in my solar plexus to confirm the matching vibe. Just to be clear, this was not some attempt to send up some ardent prayer, but rather to neutralize the crap that was blocking the free flow of energy through my system. Something else I noticed recently, which could be called the proof of the x colored glasses: On Friday morning I had had not a lot of sleep the night before, so I called my wife on the way to work and began really whining about how long before retirement-- whine, whine, whine. It was weird-- I was in the grip of this exhaustion, and every time I tapped into it, I'd get very negative. It didn't take me long, maybe 10 minutes to see that whet I was doing was extrapolating my exhaustion into the future and uncomfortably surfing that wave. The point being when I shed that blanket or saw it for what it was, not only did I change, but the world changed along with me. Ended up having a good day. And I hope that you have one too. PS Its Saturday, how bad can it get?:-)
