[gav]
Luke returns to complete his training with yoda. yoda
passes away after informing luke that his training is
only one step from completion: all that is left now is
a final confrontation with vader, his father. Luke's
prescience speeds this final battle which results in
him refusing to kill his father (after taking his
right hand, in return perhaps for the loss of his own)
and his father choosing to save his son by killing the
emperor. Vader is redeemed and luke has successfully
navigated the dark side and become a full jedi. The
journey is complete.
This paragraph stimulated what I think is
happening to me, but to what end, I have not a clue.
I work with troubled youth, as many here know. My
father did as a caseworker going house to house. I am
directly involved on a day to day basis with these
youths hate, pain, fear, and anger. My father had
heart problems before he took this job, but this job
certainly didn't help his health. His spirit was at a
loss many times, and eventually he couldn't work there
anymore due to his spirit weakened so much, that manic
depression evolved to a more harmful state in his
life. I find myself sometimes merging, unwillingly,
with what I think to myself, again unwillingly, sooo,
this is what my father went through. My mother has a
very strong survival mentality. She is from the
streets of a big city, and her brothers and father
were soldiers in different armed forces, namely navy
and army. So, at times, I feel I'm using strength
from my mothers side to overcome these powerful
forces. My father's side was more spiritual. My
grandmother on my father's side introduced me to
meditation, massage therapy, and yogi. My father
thought about life and 'God' non-stop pretty much.
Anyways, I find myself, at times, trying to
overcome what my father could not - these powers of
hate, fear, pain, and anger thrown at me, yet, I
remain calm and alert still. It is difficult, and I
wonder to what ends. How long will I work here? Why
do I work here in the first place? I know I do. I
know I'm present (while at work), and I know I must
handle what happens or I will be swallowed up - broken
apart, and then what? Some turn to drinking heavily,
some their families fall apart, usually some can't
take it and quit (many young people work at this
facility, and when I say young I mean right out of
college and they use this experience as a stimulus to
find a better job or a job they thought at one point
in time to be worthless, but in light of what they go
through at this placement facility these jobs turn out
to be not so bad considering).
Thus, is the sacred, the better, as Ron mentioned
in another post? A reaching out to overcome, to live
a better life, to sense a force, a standard of living
that is practically achievable, yet, an exercise in
reaching beyond static patterns into a dynamic new
world, even if that new world is to overcome and be
stronger, health wise, etc... than ones parents? The
using of good qualities and yet, seeing the dharmakaya
light, the way out into a world that suits what ones
intellect has begun to understand and now social ties
are to match, bodily positions are to match, and these
stable inorganic patterns will move where our better
intellectual patterns deem. And all this means is
where not dreaming anymore, but where actually living
it.
SA
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