bobbie, it is very scary to have a non-family member take care of you but it is necessary to give each other a break. he needs a caregiver support group to help him let someone else help you. isolation leads to chaos of mind... u will find an angel to help.....keep looking & asking with positive thinking derrick i got away from family and it may have been best move thzat i made in my 15 years
----- Original Message ----- From: [email protected] To: [email protected] ; [email protected] Sent: Thursday, August 09, 2012 2:29 PM Subject: Re: [QUAD-L] I'm going out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bobbie, I can't begin to imagine what you are going thru, but I'm truly sorry that you are having this experience. As always, I suggest that he let your doctor know of this issue and determine if it is a chemical imbalance, drug related or a bad time for you. I know its not the first time you have had this issue. Besides local support groups, those here wish you the very best. I wish that I could offer you more..... Best Wishes In a message dated 8/8/2012 9:24:33 P.M. Central Daylight Time, [email protected] writes: I CAN'T STAND THIS FUCKING QUAD SHIT ANYMORE! I want to take ALL my pain pills before I go to sleep tonight and NEVER wake up again-- EVER. I've been in this chair 39 FUCKING YEARS and it's getting harder every single year. I'm so stressed out about what is coming down the pike to ADD on to what I'm ALREADY going through. My pain in my neck from the srynix is unreliably OUT OF CONTROL!!!!! I saw and spoke to my pain management Doctor today and he increased my morphine. I filled the RX today and am EXTREMELY tempted to take them all tonight or the next day. Pete and me have been auguring about EVERYTHING FUCKIG thing. I calmly suggested we get a break from each other some how because he has been taking care of me full-time 24/7/365 for over 27 YEARS!!!!!!!! I have a very good friend who is willing to come stay with me but he is afraid she won't do SOMTHING right and he will have to "fix it". He won't let my mother over her anymore for the past 4 month, I have to sneak out and lie to him to see my mother and I don't know why. I want this all to end! We were thinking of going to the movies tomorrow but he wants to see "Batman" and i'll see something else, but my movie will get out 1/2 hour before his - he said he doesn't want to leave me alone for that long, that I might go into the parking lot and get hurt. What's he talking about. I said to him I'M 57 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!! I'll just sit in the lobby or just outside and read my book. I like being alone for a little bit. I want to run away, far, far away. If I break up with him I wouldn't get enough help because he dose SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much more than is on paper. Besides I love him so very much and would miss him like crazy. I just started seeing a councilor because I've been EXTREMELY depressed. I've been telling her how he is isolating me more and more so next time I go she wants to talk to both of us. Pete said "I don't know if I want to talk to her. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do. Sent from my iPad
