Pooja:I hope things go better for you here onwards. Heather & others: so sorry to hear of your experiences. Radhika: I loved reading your post (I hope it's ok to say that). It made me feel sad, and heartbroken, and hopeful, all at once. I will read it again for sure.
I don't have a specific story to tell - rather, I do, but still don't have the right resources to do so. I spent the pandemic time locked up - at home - working 110+ hours a week for months without end. There was a job to be done, and I had taken the challenge not knowing this is how it would pan out, and I was loathe to leave without getting it done. Ultimately, I succeeded, and felt...nothing! I had burnt out for the second time in my life. I did cook a bit for the kids, and wrote horrendous poetry. But I didn't read, listen to music, sleep or do anything that counts as human, besides. I lost friends to the pandemic, and family members, and then lost close friends & my beloved aunt to other illnesses, and didn't have time to grieve. I watched horrified as homeless people walked across the country, the govt cracked down on students & farmers, and the world went to hell in a basket. And then I watched, powerless, as my kids battled a dark isolation they had no part in bringing. I am mortified, ashamed, physically & mentally drained, and battling a million demons all of my own making - hoping that some day they will move on, and I will be whole again. Reading all of your experiences has helped a lot keeping it all together. Thanks! Regards, Mohit
