> My family just said "take this."
That's terrible.
You don't have to take *some meds* but one prescribed by a good doctor.
You have to find a psych with good reputation, describe your problem and then
you will get medicals that can help you.
During the period of my first time of serious sickness (i was seventeen), i
got a pretty stupid doctor who gave me the wrong medicals.
It helped a little bit but not much and had a lot of side effects.
Years and years later, after life threatening second period of disease, i was
lucky and got a clever doctor who gave me very good medicals. it helped me so
much, without it i would definitely not be alive anymore today. *then* i was
able to get a job (when i was really sick, i couldn't even be without extreme
pain any second nor see anybody nor take a walk... a job was out of the
question).
*then* i got friends and made positive social experiences for the first time
in my life. *then* i could afford a therapist - not some therapist but for
the first time a good one, I had a lot of shitty ones. And now I can
gradually start to reduce the medicals.
So this is my advice: don't just swallow some meds, try to get the right
ones.
If they are suitable for you, you will feel just normal but the negative
feelings will be on a level that is possible to stand.
I am afraid giving you this advice is all that I can do for you. It will not
be easy, but it can be done, i am the prime example for that. The most
important thing is that you take action now.
