My only contact with Cheryl Huber has been to read about half of a book she 
wrote, called something like 'There is nothing wrong with you.' it was not 
especially my style, and it is still sitting on my 'being read' shelf of books. 

I have not heard of a Mountain View Zen Center, but I will look into it. I have 
been sitting with Angie Boissivin's San Jose sangha when I am with a group. 
Their sesshin was quite pleasant. 

As far as attention and life, I find my constant challenge comes from finding 
more parts of my life that I have trouble paying attention to, ao my life seems 
to be rather more than i imagine.  i prefer Karen Maezen Miller's formulation 
that what we attend to florishes. 

For my personal psychological work, I have distinctly non verbal wounds and a 
generally non verbal way of thinking, more geometric than wordy, so I favor 
more physical and experiential ways of de-conditioning myself over all these 
'working with voices' sort of stuff.  

While I was victimized as a child, I also grew up as an educated, intelligent 
white apparently straight male who was super good at programming while 
computers were becoming ubiquitous, so I think the sort of totalizing 
powerlessness that Cheryl's technique is aimed at was not my lot. I have had a 
bias against believing that I deserve kindness and respect, but I have no doubt 
that I can please people by doing stuff they can't do with math or computers. 

I haven't had much depression, at least since getting out of adolescence, or 
desire for suicide, so I do not have much comment about the uses of mindfulness 
for those struggles. My own therapy was rather conventional trauma recovery 
therapy, based on shoring up daily routines, learning that I am safe basically, 
that it is ok to feel actual feelings, and that the body/mind is a fairly 
reasonable system (rather than rational). I regard it as being good prep work 
for Zen. 

Thanks,
Chris Austin-Lane
Sent from a cell phone

On Mar 8, 2011, at 10:03, "Healthyplay1" <[email protected]> wrote:

> Chris,
> 
> I haven't followed the postings recently, but as I was looking over the 
> thread topics, I saw your comment here, and have a quick question..
> 
> Being in No. Cal, have you attended any classes /retreats or such with Cheryl 
> Hubert? I think her center is  near Murphys-- ( Mountain View Zen Center), 
> but she   has been at Spirit Rock and other centers in the Santa Cruz   area. 
> 
> As I honor much of your practice style, I'm curious--in light of your 
> statements here-- how you would respond to her belief that your life is what 
> you give your attention to, and how to work constructively and 
> compassionately with what Cheri calls "the negative voices in the head".
> 
> I-- of course, do believe in actively engaging in  compassionate service and 
> actions. For me, zen is a means--not an end.  But I will be teaching with her 
> & others next fall, on how mindful practices influence depression and suicide.
> 
> Just interested in your thoughts. 
> 
> Thanks...k  
> 
> 
> 
> --- In [email protected], Chris Austin-Lane <chris@...> wrote:
>> 
>> On Tuesday, March 8, 2011, mike brown <uerusuboyo@...> wrote:
>> 
>>> Chris,
>>> 
>>> My apologys if I've got my wires crossed. I thought your original post was 
>>> referring to compassion when you said that, "sit, allow your body/mind to 
>>> stop twisting itself up, see that we are all one, all changing, and 
>>> fundamentally ok, and allow that belief to soak into you body so that your 
>>> body/mind components are confident and able to see when action is 
>>> appropriate", then perhaps that is more acceptable.
>> 
>> That paragraph was in contrast to the one above it, a straw man
>> statement "just get enlightened and all the worlds problems
>> disappear."
>> 
>> That paragraphis my attempt at the marketing of no-marketing.
>>> 
>>> And also:
>>> 
>>>> Many Zen groups do sponsor outward facing activity; many more individuals 
>>>> who undertake training also perform actions of benefit to others; >however 
>>>> the zen model is to make no more fuss about that than a hand adjusting the 
>>>> pillow for the head; of course that's what the hand does, no big >deal.
>>> 
>>> I took the above as talking about compassionate 'action' and my point was 
>>> referring to how that action was performed - by thought or 'thoughtless' 
>>> intuition. The point about Red Cross parcels being sent to orphans wasn't 
>>> really being addressed to what you said, but rather that compassion arises 
>>> in every action of the awakened rather than just the obvious ones (which 
>>> anyone can do - even cynically).
>> 
>> Yes, that paragraph was responding to ED's saying that his local zen
>> center visits the imprisoned.
>> 
>> As for how the action is performed, action is action, how can it be
>> performed by thought?
>> 
>> I rather find this dogged desire to split things into thought filled
>> vs intuitive to be tedious. People do what they can.  Certainly
>> blindness to my own beliefs and my own nature makes it easier to piss
>> off my neighbors when I thought i was being helpful, but to postpone
>> responding to the people around you until you climb some mountain of
>> enlightenment seems like another form of placing an idea above your
>> actual life. Acting as we can as we are, with that little openness to
>> the chance that we may be missing something quite important, is
>> something we can do right now.
>> 
>> Note: by my own nature, I do not mean no-self, I mean the stuff that
>> all my friends and acquaintances well know about me which I do not
>> like to see at all.
>> 
>> Cheers,
>> 
>> --Chris
>> 
>> 
>>> 
>>> Mike
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> From: Chris Austin-Lane <chris@...>
>>> To: [email protected]
>>> Sent: Tue, 8 March, 2011 23:17:13
>>> Subject: Re: [Zen] Re: Two Potent Quotes
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> It is just clear. My original post wasn't about sending food to the hungry 
>>> orphans, I am not sure where you got that; or compassion either.
>>> --Chris
>>> 
>>> On Mar 8, 2011 3:38 AM, "mike brown" <uerusuboyo@...> wrote:
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> Chris,
>>> 
>>> 
>>>> At the time, in the moment, it is clear.
>>> 
>>> Do you mean it is consciously clear (as in an active judgement) or 
>>> intuitively clear, without thought? For me, I still see compassion arising 
>>> from any
>>> action performed in the awakened 'state'- sending Red Cross parcels to 
>>> children in Eithiopia is beside the point.
>>> 
>>> Mike
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> From: Chris Austin-Lane <chris@...>
>>> 
>>> To: Zen_Forum@...: Tue, 8 March, 2011 13:54:13
>>> Subject: Re: [Zen] Re: Two Potent Quotes
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> At the time, in the moment, it is clear. I did not mean something which 
>>> would be labelled approp...
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
>>> 
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>>> 
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>> 
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