--- In [email protected], yonyonson@... wrote:
>
> Steve,
>
> when you are deconditioning yourself to these "bad habits," are you aware
> also of their source? Why is anger so negative in your mind?
>
> I feel through my own efforts of "deconditioning" have proven faulty in the
> sense that spontaneous action has a more honest effect in at least showing
> me where I'm at rather than pretending to restrain myself. I don't know if
> this is the same for you, but I wanted to ask because I recognized that
> pattern which you described in my own thought process.
>
> It just seems to me that you should let yourself--i'm also talking to myself
> here also--be a pain in the butt. You're being honest and you can also let
> yourself be grateful for that and maybe also forgiveness, non-resentment, et
> al. ;-)
>
> Tao Shei Fei
>
> Hi Tao. Well, I generally subscribe to the Buddhist theory of personality
> types. I see, when I watch my knee-jerk reactions to
people, places and things, that I am trapped in a pervasive pattern
of Aversion. Please don't imagine that I am talking about willful
repression of negative impulses. It is sufficient to not identify
with the impulse. When we identify with the impulse (I Am Angry!) we feed it
the attentional energy it needs to perpetuate the conditioned response.
Focussing on the Name simply helps me not to identify with the impulse. I can
hang on to the Name like an anchor (Who is hanging on to the Name?!) and watch
the impulse as it arises and fades away. It works for me. JM commented in one
of his posts that one of the marks of awakening is realizing that we are
enslaved by our own minds! Aversion types are enslaved by Aversion, Attraction
types are enslaved by Attraction and Confusion types are lost in Confusion.
IMO, one must acknowledge the impulse without identifying with it.
Have you, when watching your reactions to phenomena, noticed a consistent
pattern of either Attraction or Aversion?
Steve
>
>
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