Yon and Steve: Awareness of habits have not helped me so far as far as emotions concerns. I also consider more natural to be just as we are. We talk about non discrimination or going beyond duality but as soon the negative emotions of irritation, anger, aggression, annoyance....appear in one we think that by the recitation of a name or the awareness of the breathing, walking meditation....will help that to be dissolved. And perhaps that is so for the moment. But not in the long run my experience is that we thought to be dissolved it wasn't but submerged into the store consciousness. Consequently after a while that and comes back with a greater strenght. There is something that is called "passive aggression" and it comes out when those unwelcome emotions arise in one and one tries to dissolve them. I've learnt through the relationship I have with my boyfriend . who happens not to be a practitioner to relax and be myself 100%.. Consequently we have moments of great intensity in all the ways. And it's healthy and very lively and very real for being oneselves. I consider that if nature gave us all that bunch of emotions in us may have been for something. Nature is wise. To me the most important thing is to be oneselves. There are flowers of all kinds, colors, smells, symetries....and all are beautiful just as they are. The carnation doesn't want to be a rose and the rose doesn't want to be a carnation. The carnation doesn't get angry with the rose because the rose has thorns. They don't know what is discrimination or duality about. Mayka --- On Thu, 10/3/11, SteveW <[email protected]> wrote:
From: SteveW <[email protected]> Subject: Re: [Zen] Two Potent Quotes To: [email protected] Date: Thursday, 10 March, 2011, 18:31 --- In [email protected], yonyonson@... wrote: > > Steve, > > when you are deconditioning yourself to these "bad habits," are you aware > also of their source? Why is anger so negative in your mind? > > I feel through my own efforts of "deconditioning" have proven faulty in the > sense that spontaneous action has a more honest effect in at least showing > me where I'm at rather than pretending to restrain myself. I don't know if > this is the same for you, but I wanted to ask because I recognized that > pattern which you described in my own thought process. > > It just seems to me that you should let yourself--i'm also talking to myself > here also--be a pain in the butt. You're being honest and you can also let > yourself be grateful for that and maybe also forgiveness, non-resentment, et > al. ;-) > > Tao Shei Fei > > Hi Tao. Well, I generally subscribe to the Buddhist theory of personality > types. I see, when I watch my knee-jerk reactions to people, places and things, that I am trapped in a pervasive pattern of Aversion. Please don't imagine that I am talking about willful repression of negative impulses. It is sufficient to not identify with the impulse. When we identify with the impulse (I Am Angry!) we feed it the attentional energy it needs to perpetuate the conditioned response. Focussing on the Name simply helps me not to identify with the impulse. I can hang on to the Name like an anchor (Who is hanging on to the Name?!) and watch the impulse as it arises and fades away. It works for me. JM commented in one of his posts that one of the marks of awakening is realizing that we are enslaved by our own minds! Aversion types are enslaved by Aversion, Attraction types are enslaved by Attraction and Confusion types are lost in Confusion. IMO, one must acknowledge the impulse without identifying with it. Have you, when watching your reactions to phenomena, noticed a consistent pattern of either Attraction or Aversion? Steve > >
