Hello to all my CML Family... Just wanted to let everyone know I am feeling much better. My depression is slowly fading away thanks to an increase in my lexapro and therapy. With everything else going on in my life, my son going to jail nearly did me in. I've been having panic attacks for quite some time and they became worse with his incarceration. I just had these panicky feelings that what if I died before he got out...or what if someone inside the jail got to him. I know that probably sounds crazy but Lord knows it is the truth. While I can't truly say I am happy he is in jail...but in one way it has been a blessing...it got him away from the pill addiction that was destroying his life so in a sense, it was a sort of detox for him. He swears on his life that just this one month he has served has made him a changed person...and I'm sure the months to come will bring even more change...I pray it does. He comes up for a review in a month and a half and maybe...just maybe he will be released with time served. He has a loving, kind heart but he just has some emotional problems that he just hasn't discovered how to deal with yet and he found that the pills he was taking relieved him of the pain...but I think he realizes now that it is not a cure...just a temporary cover-up. He is somewhat shy and has very low self esteem, and has trouble coping with the fact that he is not like everyone else in certain ways. He has ADD among other problems and just can't seem to stay focused. I've took him several books and it took him 2 weeks to read one average size paperback. If there is not total silence...and he cannot stay focused, he has to read paragraphs over and over to even know what he read. He is an excellent speller and during school always competed in the county and state spelling competitions. It's been a long struggle. Anyway, I realize this is a site for us to discuss CML, and I apologize for getting off track some times but this is my life...my story and I struggle with more than CML on a daily basis and I find myself very comfortable sharing it with my new (CML) family. I just hope that sharing my experiences might help someone else who reads my posts...maybe someone else out there is going through the same thing and just doesn't want to talk about it. Anyway, if you get tired of hearing about my problems, or feel I am way off base.... Rob or any of the members, just tell me. I will not be offended!
OK...now for the good part...I went to see my doctor last Thursday, and my numbers were (and I may not have enough zeros or too many in here, didn't get a printout, forgot, duh) but the doctor wrote it on a slip of paper and handed it to me....0000037. He says this is excellent and I can now come to see him every 2 months instead of every month. Is this the norm or does everyone still go once a month? I'm so excited and feel so blest. He also gave me my script for my pain meds that my primary doctor could no longer write. I did not realize how much pain I really was in until I had nothing to take. The bone and joint pain at times had me in tears. I took more ibuprofen in that month I had nothing else to take than I have in my whole life. Thank you Jesus for a caring, understanding doctor. I also discussed with him that I thought since the leukemia was better...I should have a stronger immune system and that the bone pain should be better. He says I am one of the unlucky ones who responds to the Gleevec the way I do, as far as side effects. I was sick for a month with bronchitis and I'm still not completely over it. He thinks my lungs are weakened from years of heavy smoking...and according to my medical records over the years and even as a child, that being premature weighing 3lbs at birth (in the year 1962)...may have played some part in my health in general. I kept a cold, or flu when I was a child and missed lots of school. Anyway...I guess I've rambled long enough...sorry! Someone please post and tell me if my numbers are good as the doc says...and about the doctor visits...how often? My prayers are with you all at all times. Thank you "ALL" for your continous support,guidance, knowledge, friendship and kindness. I don't know what I would do without you. Love, Peace, Hope & Prayers, Pat New! Sign up for local CML support group meetings in your local community at http://cml.meetup.com Apply for Commercial Real Estate loans online and submit your deal to dozens of hungry lenders in just minutes. Loan programs for all types of business and commercial real estate. Apply anytime at http://realestatezoo.com CML (Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia Support List) --------------------------------- Part Of CMLHope.Com An International Community Of CML Patients For more information: http://cmlhope.com Post Message: [email protected] Subscribe: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Unsubscribe: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To No Mail/Web: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To Digest: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To Email: [EMAIL PROTECTED] List Help: [EMAIL PROTECTED] CML Group Web Site http://groups.yahoo.com/group/CML Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/CML/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
