I would like a little feed back in regards to the last part of my post. This part:
Sorry for being so much off the subject of non- dual, but that is one of the things that is bothering me too. I mean, seeing them fuck up and act so irresponsibly ...... Is that part of me? Do I actually have some of those qualities? Am I to learn from this and find these hidden quirks within and correct them? On Jul 28, 5:56 pm, Rodger <[email protected]> wrote: > Are you just venting,Bob,or are you wanting some feedback? > > Sorry you had such a bad day. > > On Jul 28, 5:11 pm, Bob1357 <[email protected]> wrote: > > > I am having a little..... no ...... a lot of difficulty today with > > anger. > > I gave my employees a priority list today. > > A list geared so that a ten year old could understand it. > > Nothing was done in order, nothing was done correctly and most of what > > I asked was not done at all. > > I completely exploded when I showed up at the job site this afternoon. > > I was furious. > > I don't do furious and I don't explode. > > Perhaps things are coming to a head and I am realizing that I can not > > rely on others. > > One thing that really gets me bent is the fact that they are all so > > much in the dark. > > Eating, drinking, fucking, and sleeping is all they seem to care > > about. > > There like animals at times. Me me me mine mine mine > > Perhaps I need "employees" with a raised or slightly higher > > consciousness than what my current employees have. > > I have pointed to the problems over and over but they just don't seem > > to get it or care. > > Perhaps my standards are too high. > > Perhaps it is all my fault for letting fuck ups and mistakes slide so > > easily. > > Perhaps they have learned that they can get away with what ever they > > want because Bob is nice. > > I do believe that within all this chaos there is something unraveling. > > Unfortunately I am so filled with anger and a sense of betrayal that I > > can not see it. > > I am confused at how I can let another influence my mood today. > > I am not an angry person. > > My head hurts. > > Just venting, thanks to those for reading. > > Sorry for being so much off the subject of non- dual, but that is one > > of the things that is bothering me too. > > I mean, seeing them fuck up and act so irresponsibly ...... Is that > > part of me? > > Do I actually have some of those qualities? > > Am I to learn from this and find these hidden quirks within and > > correct them? > > Ok ...... Now my head hurts more.
