Are you just venting,Bob,or are you wanting some feedback? Sorry you had such a bad day.
On Jul 28, 5:11 pm, Bob1357 <[email protected]> wrote: > I am having a little..... no ...... a lot of difficulty today with > anger. > I gave my employees a priority list today. > A list geared so that a ten year old could understand it. > Nothing was done in order, nothing was done correctly and most of what > I asked was not done at all. > I completely exploded when I showed up at the job site this afternoon. > I was furious. > I don't do furious and I don't explode. > Perhaps things are coming to a head and I am realizing that I can not > rely on others. > One thing that really gets me bent is the fact that they are all so > much in the dark. > Eating, drinking, fucking, and sleeping is all they seem to care > about. > There like animals at times. Me me me mine mine mine > Perhaps I need "employees" with a raised or slightly higher > consciousness than what my current employees have. > I have pointed to the problems over and over but they just don't seem > to get it or care. > Perhaps my standards are too high. > Perhaps it is all my fault for letting fuck ups and mistakes slide so > easily. > Perhaps they have learned that they can get away with what ever they > want because Bob is nice. > I do believe that within all this chaos there is something unraveling. > Unfortunately I am so filled with anger and a sense of betrayal that I > can not see it. > I am confused at how I can let another influence my mood today. > I am not an angry person. > My head hurts. > Just venting, thanks to those for reading. > Sorry for being so much off the subject of non- dual, but that is one > of the things that is bothering me too. > I mean, seeing them fuck up and act so irresponsibly ...... Is that > part of me? > Do I actually have some of those qualities? > Am I to learn from this and find these hidden quirks within and > correct them? > Ok ...... Now my head hurts more.
