> Woohoo! I can kill paper 30 times per second! :) Yep, doesn't get any better than that :) Ask the Jarvi!!
> I was thinking about that email I got about an offshore impotence > treatment... :P Paxil has this great side effect......... > Ahh... yeah, see, I've never been to those clubs. Well than you haven't lived. You coing to the FB/Frameworks conference? > This is probably a character flaw, but unless I make some progress > (usually several hours) on my own programming projects nearly every > day, I feel very... "unproductive"... and I get agitated, and of > course, that doesn't help my depression because then I'm just thinking > about all the work I'm not doing and how all that work is not helping > me pay for my divorce... Tiff is frequently (always?) upset about the > amount of time I spend with her... my perception of it is -- we (she > and I both) aren't able to live the way we want to live, and so I'm > working toward a future in which we could potentially live the way we > want to live. To do that I have to produce some software that people > want to buy, and since I haven't in the 5 years (not significantly -- > a few sales on the chat room at $40/per) that represents essentially > zero progress toward the goal of having our desired lifestyle. 5 years > is a long time for zero progress (and I didn't make any significant > progress in the 2 yrs of CF work prior to that when I was with my ex, > with the exception of job-history)... So my reasoning then of course > logically follows that I haven't worked hard enough, so I need to work > harder so that I don't waste the next 5, 10 or 20 yrs treading water > and continuing to produce zero progress toward our goals. The issue of > "cuddling" ends up often being a sore subject for Tiff. I almost ended up getting divorced for this very issue. Wasn't paying enough attention to my wife and kids, working, writing code, studying doing something work related all the time. When she got ready to leave it woke me up, taught me something. Getting ahead financially, and having nice toys, means shit if the people you love aren't there when you reach your goal. > Longer answer: I'd consider it... although... struggling though I am, > right now I just passed my 1yr aniversary with sitemanageware, so > although I continue to keep my eyes open for job leads (because the > past 7 yrs have made me very paranoid) and I don't tell recruiters to > sod off when they call, I'm torn. I work with some really nice people > -- the code is frustrating (more because of it having been designed > originally by non-programmers), but that's been true of most of the > places I've worked... What's different about this job is that my > co-workers seem to care about me as a person, and I'm a significant > part of the R&D team (there are 3 of us) so while I don't have the > final say on architecture, my voice is significant in architecture > decisions. The only problem I have with the job is my salary -- and > the only reason I have a problem with my salary is that I'm ~$30k in > arrears child support accrued over the last 5 yrs, plus $1500/mo per > month... At the rate it's being paid off currently ($300/mo), assuming > there's a sudden radical change in the industry and/or my luck and I'm > able to keep this job, I'll have it paid off in a little over 8 yrs, > at which point I might be able to save some cash toward my own > life-goals... my life-begins! Woohoo! At age 38 <sigh>... So... yeah, > I've thought about it... and staying where I am sucks, and taking > another job sucks... so I'm not sure how to handle it... I've never > actively looked for another job when I've had a salaried job. Well man to tell you the truth, if you are primarily happy there I wouldn't move. Being satasified with your job, it's culture and the other employees around you is very hard to do man. > >>I didn't think so... Why? Do you grow on trees? :) oh oh I though of a better answer to this. Drum roll please .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. Nope. I just smoke em!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~| Find out how CFTicket can increase your company's customer support efficiency by 100% http://www.houseoffusion.com/banners/view.cfm?bannerid=49 Message: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=i:5:165926 Archives: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/threads.cfm/5 Subscription: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=s:5 Unsubscribe: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/unsubscribe.cfm?user=11502.10531.5 Donations & Support: http://www.houseoffusion.com/tiny.cfm/54
