you know whenever a book gets unbearable, i skip and read the last few pages..depending on the size.. like somethig less than the last quarter.. to get an idea of wat happened.. or my curiosity kills me..wish you could do that in real life huh...skip and see how a certain direction were to conclude....
On Thu, Jul 1, 2010 at 1:46 AM, DarkwaterBlight <[email protected]>wrote: > Life sometimes plays out like a novel, different twists and turns. > Nothing like an ironic and tragic ending! At any time we may put the > book down and pick up a different one that's more agreeable and life > is such as well. > > On Jun 29, 9:28 pm, rigsy03 <[email protected]> wrote: > > But thinking more about this- why were you attracted to these women to > > begin with? Afterall, a label might just be a fable. It can be like a > > "get out of jail" card, I suppose, but doesn't really solve much for > > the supposedly "sane" partner.//I wrote lyric poetry for a while and > > it had its own music without the notes- a percussion?//Keep the faith, > > Darkwater! Lord- I was so enchanted and amazed to read a book the last > > couple of days- at first. By the end I was shattered and probably > > won't read the others I've reserved at the library. Reminds me of > > love! :-) > > > > On Jun 29, 7:48 am, DarkwaterBlight <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > Sometimes, both music and words come to me like getting struck by > > > lightning. Wakes me up out of a sound sleep and I have to grab my > > > guitar and a pad and paper.. Other times I'll start with a tune and it > > > can take months or even years before I write the lyrics. If I write > > > lyrics, though, there is already a tune, in my head if not a comleted > > > composition. I think that out of all the women I have been with, there > > > might be one or two that had their stuff together but again, I was > > > just 'fun to play with' for a while. The rest, if not already > > > clinically diagnosed, they should be! The only long term > > > relationships I've had were with total nut bags. :P I can only claim > > > responsibilty for one of them though. > > > > > On Jun 29, 8:02 am, rigsy03 <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > I used to liken it to the "Perils of Pauline" because I seemed to > > > > escape like that old silent film drama. Now, I consider my life as an > > > > interesting one- one I have tried to make sense of and I think I > > > > succeeded in many ways- but I'll die anyway! :-) I think everyday of > > > > those who have been caught up in war or sub-human conditions and try > > > > to be grateful and humble. My troubles and turmoil are/were > > > > miniscule.//I tried to write lyrics for a composer friend but found > it > > > > hard to write to his competed music- I think it's easier to shape the > > > > music to words- how about you?//I quit drinking nearly a year ago and > > > > am much happier with life and others. > > > > > > On Jun 28, 8:07 am, DarkwaterBlight <[email protected]> > wrote: > > > > > > > Interesting that you bring up the point of 'creator types'! I'm a > song > > > > > writer/musician and I have been greatly influenced by my > relationships > > > > > in my music and writing. It seems when there is much turmoil the > music > > > > > and lyrics flow. Vam is correct in saying that it's not possible to > > > > > succeed in turning our emotions off and truly that was never my > intent > > > > > but as a defense mechanism I have learned to stuff them. It proves > to > > > > > be detrimental in some ways, particularly in writing. I have > blocked > > > > > much of my muse in trying to minimize the drama. Truth is that life > is > > > > > just that, a set in which we all play out our own dramas. I was > once > > > > > told by a woman I dated that I love drama and created it. I > perceived > > > > > it as her projecting her own tendencies on me ut she may have been > > > > > correct to some extent. I did alot of writing around that time! > LOL! > > > > > > > On Jun 28, 5:15 am, rigsy03 <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > A number of creator types stay single or have arrangements that > allow > > > > > > for a good deal of freedom but that does not guarantee > inspiration in > > > > > > and of itself. Often, creativity feeds just as well on pressured > > > > > > enviornments and committments.//I doubt most children feel better > off > > > > > > without both parents but the notion of family has changed greatly > so > > > > > > perhaps they adapt better these days. And a wretched marriage is > > > > > > wretched for all plus what is lonlier than a bad marriage? > Sometimes > > > > > > it seems strange that I took to motherhood considering...But > > > > > > motherhood has also changed, hasn't it? > > > > > > > > On Jun 27, 1:49 pm, vamadevananda <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > " I have turned my emotional switch to 0." > > > > > > > > > We all do that. And can never succeed, because emotions are > another > > > > > > > name of human experience. They are ours. > > > > > > > > > Yes, some of us are better off without life partner > relationships. > > > > > > > Mostly, for the sake of the other. Rarely, for oneself ... for > some > > > > > > > higher priority we must pursue. > > > > > > > > > On Jun 27, 11:18 pm, DarkwaterBlight <[email protected]> > wrote: > > > > > > > > > > Spiritual Crisis? Yes I believe you may be correct in your > > > > > > > > observation. I think I have developed a willful ignorance or > lack of > > > > > > > > empathy when it comes to emotions. I have tried to share my > feelings > > > > > > > > to no avail and have been left dissapointed and feeling > broken. So in > > > > > > > > an attenpt to heal I have turned my emotional switch to 0. I > can see > > > > > > > > my own spiritual crisis and do not wish to have the > responsibility of > > > > > > > > someone elses 'baggage' as rigsy03 has pointed out. After our > > > > > > > > seperation I tryed again to no avail and yet I still try to > make that > > > > > > > > connection and keep hitting the same brick wall. I know the > answer > > > > > > > > lies within myself but I'm not sure if I want to know it. I > guess I > > > > > > > > like living in the dillusion that I am fine being alone in > life. I > > > > > > > > know that is never true as we all have each other but I am > refering to > > > > > > > > a permanant mate and partner in life. It's too easy for me to > give up > > > > > > > > on the idea rather than trying so hard and fighting to keep a > > > > > > > > relationship. I know too well that there are many fish in the > sea and > > > > > > > > I love seafood. > > > > > > > > > > On Jun 26, 12:54 pm, vamadevananda <[email protected]> > wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > " Emotionally draining, we literally sucked the life out of > each > > > > > > > > > other." > > > > > > > > > > > Do you believe or are able to conceive, in the face of > your contrary > > > > > > > > > experience, that it is possible for two people to graduate > to ' giving > > > > > > > > > life to each other,' rather than sucking, to ' enriching > each other > > > > > > > > > emotionally,' than draining ? > > > > > > > > > > > Do you recall the movie sketching the life an authoress, > played by > > > > > > > > > Kate Winslet, and her male live - in fan, whose > disappointments and > > > > > > > > > spiritual crisis in later age anyone could empathise with ! > > > > > > > > > > > On Jun 26, 7:41 pm, DarkwaterBlight < > [email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > Truly I did have expectations, in the begining of my > marriage, that > > > > > > > > > > were the fairy tale type. Reality struck hard early on in > our > > > > > > > > > > realtionship, we were both poor and from dysfunctional > backrounds. We > > > > > > > > > > were very aware of the pitfalls in life and dated 4 years > before > > > > > > > > > > getting married. When we finally did get married, she was > 5 months > > > > > > > > > > pregnant. We have three children who are 4 yearrs apart > in age now and > > > > > > > > > > our youngest is going to be 9. We were, (and probably > still are) in > > > > > > > > > > love. It doesn't make a lot of sense to me so it's really > hard to > > > > > > > > > > explain. I know that she would have me back and I would > too but it > > > > > > > > > > makes absolutely no sense. There is no logical > explaination I can give > > > > > > > > > > but I will never allow myself to feel that way about > another woman > > > > > > > > > > because it is too painful. Emotionally draining, we > literally sucked > > > > > > > > > > the life out of each other. > > > > > > > > > > > > On Jun 26, 12:33 am, ashok tewari <[email protected]> > wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > It does, Slip, but does not indicate if the case was > one of fairy tale > > > > > > > > > > > expectations from relationships in ' love,' to start > with. > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Sat, Jun 26, 2010 at 5:00 AM, Slip Disc < > [email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > All cultural disparity aside, Vam, the "imho" (in my > humble opinion) > > > > > > > > > > > > clearly indicates the subjectivity in the statement. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Jun 25, 4:49 pm, vamadevananda < > [email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > " Imho, being 'in love' is, as Arch says, a fairy > tale." > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Wouldn't it be more accurate to state that of ' > love,' as you or Arch > > > > > > > > > > > > > understand or mean it ! ? It would be a great > service to let your > > > > > > > > > > > > > readers know that and, better still, to actually > state what you > > > > > > > > > > > > > understand or what your ' love ' means to you, as > in what it does to > > > > > > > > > > > > > you, how it affects you, what place it has in your > hierarchy of > > > > > > > > > > > > > values ? > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > For instance, if you've fallen for the fairy tale > kind of love, you > > > > > > > > > > > > > will end up with disappointments appropriate to > fairy tale kind of > > > > > > > > > > > > > love ! > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > And, this isn't semantics. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > On Jun 25, 7:29 pm, DarkwaterBlight < > [email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I guess depending on how fast you want to travel > it could be both! I' > > > > > > > > > > > > > > have been reluctant to reply to this thread but I > do share some of > > > > > > > > > > > > > > your views PSK. Truth is that I have been married > for close to 20 > > > > > > > > > > > > > > years now but I have not lived with my wife for > clos to 5 years. We > > > > > > > > > > > > > > are both much happier than we were when we lived > together. I have had > > > > > > > > > > > > > > a few long term relationships since and they were > just too much for me > > > > > > > > > > > > > > personally. I have a GF now and she wants to pin > me down, I feel > > > > > > > > > > > > > > smothered. We lived together for a while and I > wound up excomunicating > > > > > > > > > > > > > > her from the solice of my abode. We are still > 'together' but during > > > > > > > > > > > > > > the course of our 1 year > > > > ... > > > > read more ยป- Hide quoted text - > > > > - Show quoted text - > -- \--/ Peace
