I just want to cook & eat what and when I want. I want to wear a drop dead dress and heels and go out dancing. If I can't sleep, I want to get up in the middle of the night. I want to clean my place MY way. I want to paddle a canoe on a lake again. I want to sail my sailboat again. I want to water ski again. I want to go swimming again. I want to go snow skiing again. I want to put a back pack on and hike up a mountain camp overnight with a friend or two. I want to drive a stick shift again. I want to stay out all night and get in trouble when I get home. I want to slow dance with Pete. I want to have sex and know what it feels like. I want to have an orgasm know what it feels like. I want to have shower sex that I've never have had. I want to pack a light suitcase and drive three hours to my sisters in Saratoga, NY for the weekend. I want to be able to do yoga and tai chi. I want to rollerblade and cross country skiing for the first time. I want to be able to sew my own clothes. I want to take care of somebody that needs as much help as I do. I want to take care of Pete when he doesn't feel well. I want to learn to play the harp. I want to feel the earth between my toes. I want to be able to turn in the middle of the night without waking somebody up. I want to plant and grow vegetables and flowers in a garden. I want to take a trip to Europe with a friend. I want to be needed and have purpose. I want to go to a picnic and if it starts to rain run into the house with everybody else and not into a garage with one person keeping me company. I want to pick up and hold my nieces and nephews as infants and toddlers. I want to go to sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep ... and never wake up. I'm done. It's been 41 years and each year there's a new problem. I am in so much pain in my endurance level continues to drop. My family and friends do not understand they just remembering me full of energy. Bobbie
> On May 27, 2014, at 1:54 PM, RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> wrote: > > I just want to go to the lake like I once did. Go to my camping spot nestled > three miles back in the woods and ride my four wheeler. I want to be able to > go shoot targets with my guns and enjoy cleaning them. I want to be able to > ask out any woman and have a chance at taking her out on sat night. I want to > work on my truck and change my own oil. I would like to get into one more > fist fight to feel im still alive. I want to feel sex again and have a > regular woman that loves me next to me every night. Mostly, I want to be > independent from others, show up and leave when I want to without guilt or > being forced to do something. I want to sit on a toilet and feel a bowell > movement. I want to go to family events again and be able to go out in the > garage with the men. I want to cut grass and smell that fresh cut smell. I > want to work hard at a job and get a paycheck again. I want to feel proud > again. Have a bunch of buddies over and get a lil crazy. > > Sadly a lot of these things will never happen for me anymore. I am still > greatful to be alive most of the time. My next segment will be whats left > still to do! > > Ron > > > On Tuesday, May 27, 2014 9:52 AM, Larry Willis <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > Ditto, Ron, ditto. > > Sent from my iPad > > Begin forwarded message: > >> Resent-From: [email protected] >> From: RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> >> Date: May 26, 2014 at 10:15:36 PM EDT >> To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]> >> Subject: Re: [QUAD-L] To wake, or not to wake up? >> Reply-To: RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> >> >> When Im in pain many times I question if I will wake up. I have had times >> when I have my talks with the lord and say I just cant do this anymore, but >> then I wake up for another bowell routine >> >> ron >> >> >> On Monday, May 26, 2014 8:26 PM, Gmail <[email protected]> wrote: >> >> >> I have a question. 90% of the time when I go to sleep I hope/wish I will not >> wake up in the morning. >> Dose anybody else ever have these thoughts? Bobbie > >
