Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Individuality: Outward Projection vs. Inner Subjective Sense of No Indiv. Do

[Llundrub]

In other words the I am' ness (self) has to differentiate from the I as an organizing function, that is doing mistakes and learning from them. When this differentiation has not happened, the self (I am' ness) is vulnerable in the heavy swell of life and also the I as organizing function can have more difficulties in learning and making calm and honest observations. Irmeli ---But also one learns from their mistakes and tries next time to be more of a master and less of a fool. I had a job where I was in charge of a production crew of 6 people where the chef stressed me out every second and where I worked from 5 AM until 11 PM every single day, 6 days straight a week. I also made employee meal three times a day and was usually too busy to eat it more than once. The situation was such that it was a brand new restaurant where everything changed constantly. I became a total asshole and really bossy and demanding with everyone. I saw what kind of person I was under pressure. I was the worst of all possible people. I would like to think that I have changed. But I haven't. All I can know is what I'm like and pray that I not be so reprehensible again. Because I didn't like myself either.  This was 6 years ago. At that time as well, I was a completely straight person, no dope, no drinking, nothing. I was a prick. And a failure at keeping cool. I made a vow to not be such an asshole ever again. One that I have broken, but it was at least a goal. I would like to think I'm a bit better now. If I didn't take it all so hard myself I would still be just as bad today.   Much of this is semantics, and the concept of shunyata is only a concept for nonmeditators who are merely book read and use words and meanings to reach for their abstraction. Shunyata is not lack of all content altogether, it is lack of concepual form altogether. Their still is content. This is what I love about Buddhist, there is also the emptiness of emptiness. Many Buddhists unfortunately have little darshan and get nihilism and shunyata mixed up.    In fact, one can posit that God and Shunyata are one and the same, because God cannot be conceptualized at all whatsoever. I have has at least two Rinpoches use the concept of Vishnu as a synonym for the Absolute shunyata. This is much the point in utilizing the most abstractive language to describe the experience.  Buddha wasn't a nihilist, nor was he against an impersonal absolute being, which is how he can even speak of an absolute. He was merely against the relativism of different warring deities who all had limited personalities which served as models for human behavior. So in this way perhaps one should be cool as an ice cube like the absolute and not act like a God in heaven calling the shots and throwing lightning bolts when one is 'wronged.' in imagination, or any other way. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/   To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED]   Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.