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Re: Demons I see what youre saying, although I think theres actually two ways my visual problems manifest themselves, and I think this problem is rooted in another issue.Physically, my vision is normal, currently. My mom has a history of severe nearsightedness but she was able to receive

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Re: Demons I see what youre saying, although I think theres actually two ways my visual problems manifest themselves, and I think this problem is rooted in another issue.Physically, my vision is normal, currently. My mom has a history of severe nearsightedness but she was able to receive

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Re: Demons Do you think your emotions about eliminating visual input might have something to do with the way you, as an autistic person, process visual sensory input? URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=200508#p200508

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Re: Demons Ive considered it, and it would be an interesting discovery if studied, but Im not sure 100% of the correlation.I have trouble with some visual processing. For example, I have face blindness, which means I cant remember peoples faces, usually I come up with a coping strategy

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Re: Demons Ive considered it, and it would be an interesting discovery if studied, but Im not sure 100% of the correlation.I have trouble with some visual processing. For example, I have face blindness, which means I cant remember peoples faces, usually I come up with a coping strategy

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Re: Demons Im familiar with face blindness. You are definitely a very non-visual person by default, which is perfectly normal. I happen to be a very visual person by default, and even after 14 years of blindness, I still instictively visualise just about everything. Although most people

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Re: Demons Perhaps you could re-use some of the Things that you and maybe others have said in this topic. If you cant tell him about it I think writing would Work as well.And as Aprone said its good to hear from you Again, I too was starting to Wonder. I wont say I dont give a shit, I find

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Re: Demons @TMV: Agree. Kind of what I wanted to say in the beginning of my post. I believe it could Work fine for breaking the ice about this subject.I have heard of others WHO didnt feel they could talk to their therapist about a certain topic so they wrote them a letter about

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Re: Demons Themadviolinist might be on to something here. I hadnt thought of this, and on the surface its a very interesting idea. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=200305#p200305 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list

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Re: Demons It occurs to me that you have already explained what you are going through quite articulately here in this forum. It also occurs to me that in the main we have an example of quite a good and non-judgmental discussion that could act as a model for any therapist who is working

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Re: Demons Ill agree as well, or if you prefer you could always ask your therapist to take a quick look at your blog. One way or another its important your therapist know about this so they can help you fully and I know admitting things face to face can be hellishly difficult, you feel

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Re: Demons Rach Rach, Ive actually been wondering how you were doing. Im glad to get an update. I wish I had some advice that hasnt already been given, but for the moment I dont. Many people would disagree with me, but Ive always been 100% against the use of any mind altering substance

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Re: Demons Perhaps you could re-use some of the Things that you and maybe others have said in this topic. If you cant tell him about it I think writing would Work as well.And as Aprone said its good to hear from you Again, I too was starting to Wonder. I wont say I dont give a shit, I find

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Re: Demons HI.Ah thats interesting about the hypnotherapy. I think as you said writing would help. Try it next time you go to your therapist. Write down how youre feeling, I also find that easier than speaking sometimes so can see where youre coming from with that. And yes as aprone said

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Re: Demons I thought Id bring up an update.Ive gone to a therapist, but I havent been able to break the water with him. The condition has fluctuated up and down. It appears to get worse if Im tired or depressed, or otherwise low tolerance or threshold to pain or irritation. It appears

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Re: Demons I thought Id bring up an update.Ive gone to a therapist, but I havent been able to break the water with him. The condition has fluctuated up and down. It appears to get worse if Im tired or depressed, or otherwise low tolerance or threshold to pain or irritation. It appears

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Re: Demons Hypnotherapy has dubious results and Im pretty sure its not officially recognized as a valid therapy technique. Usually hypnotists perform their hypnotism through soothing sounds, so blind people could technically get hypnotized.I actually use the marijuana because it inhibits

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Re: Demons Hypnotherapy has dubious results and Im pretty sure its not officially recognized as a valid therapy technique. Usually hypnotists perform their hypnotism through soothing sounds, so blind people could technically get hypnotized.I actually use the marijuana because it inhibits

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Re: Demons Hi. Have you thought of hypnotherapy? To get to your subconscious mind and maybe bring out memorys or feelings you are holding back on,to see why exactly you like being blind and practicing being blind. Or do you think that wouldnt help? Its just an idea I had when reading your

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Re: Demons @Turtlepower17I want to assure you that mentalities change from one place to another. This does stand even for blinds. I say again, well, if I met a blind girl, I’d probably hold a relationship, but not for so long, because the reason it’s already known. There are many problems

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Re: Demons I guess its even difficult in your country (UK). Am I wrong? URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=196463#p196463 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin

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Re: Demons That depends on your definition of bad. Its not as bad as it seems to be in your country of course, we arent so much looked down on but we do get patronised a lot and any suggestions we make often go ignored. Its sometimes almost as if were being told how wonderful we

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Re: Demons Hi Afrim,Im sorry that you feel that way. I can only offer my sympathy, as I dont understand what its like to be looked down on to the extent that you describe.Or perhaps youre saying that its not economically possible for two blind people to have a successful relationship

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Re: Demons Hi Afrim.Sometimes it is hard. Honestly? I stay in doors quite a bit so couldnt really tell you how hard it is. What I can tel you is some people are stupid. Yes they might not have seen a blind person before, but still, thats no reason to act as if were super heroes, were just

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Re: Demons Take it from me, trying to pin down your self identity can be hell. In the end I had to force myself to give up trying and just be me but its a very stressful experience, doubly so when theres the fear in the back of your mind about how people and society will react to you

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Re: Demons Yo Brad,Its hard for a blind couple to cope with all sorts of activities, isnt it?I mean, the personality is highly important, but the world isnt especially designed for us. Only some environments like any school or playing field for blinds is suitable for us, and only my

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Re: Demons Hi afrim.Ah that I can understand. yes blind people in poorer countries are treated really badly. My friend Amin told me about how other blind people were treated in Malaysia. It wasnt nice. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=196401#p196401

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Re: Demons Hi.＠@afrim I think youre wrong on this point.Its not the blindness that makes the person, its the personality. Let me tell you something. I tried dating a blind woman once, no it didnt work out, but it wasnt cause of her blindness it was just that I wasnt ready

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Re: Demons I know what you mean Brad. As a former mainstream gamer, having to give it up something like 13 years ago now, I swear if by some miracle I ever got my sight back Id buy the biggest damn monitor, maybe even one of those home cinema projectors, with the hottest gaming rig I could

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Re: Demons Perhaps Im just misunderstood here but I never felt like being blind was a walk in the park or some exciting experience. The truth is that my feelings are there but they arent based in any sort of logical reasoning. The reality is that these feelings persist through everything

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Re: Demons Perhaps Im just misunderstood here but I never felt like being blind was a walk in the park or some exciting experience. The truth is that my feelings are there but they arent based in any sort of logical reasoning. The reality is that these feelings persist through everything

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Re: Demons Perhaps Im just misunderstood here but I never felt like being blind was a walk in the park or some exciting experience. The truth is that my feelings are there but they arent based in any sort of logical reasoning. The reality is that these feelings persist through everything

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Re: Demons Its scary for you to change into something you dont feel like you are.So very much. Blindness aside, even. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=196354#p196354 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames

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Re: Demons hi turtlepower17,Most antivirus boot cds run within linux, which iliminates the possibility of a talking install. Also, reformating and reinstalling the operating system completely defeats the purpose of my malware business. Anyone can reinstall windows. My goal was to remove

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Re: Demons hi turtlepower17,Most antivirus boot cds run within linux, which iliminates the possibility of a talking install. Also, reformating and reinstalling the operating system completely defeats the purpose of my malware business. Anyone can reinstall windows. My goal was to remove

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Re: Demons Um relationships with sighted people are just as healthy or unhealthy as you make them. Sorry, Im happily married to a sighted woman who never thought of me as less, who drove 150 miles round trip to see me when first we were dating, and with whom I have worked out a very fair

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Re: Demons Hi Enes,I see what youre saying, and yes, that could present some challenges.Brad is right, though. Something like Winstaller, or, more specifically, Core Recovery, might be able to do these things. There are a couple of drawbacks, of course. One is the high cost, Ive heard

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Re: Demons This was a very interesting topic to read. Rachel, I definitely dont understand what youre going through having been born blind myself. As others have said, dont make a permenant decision you may one day regret. This world is mostly designed for the sighted and you would have

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Re: Demons Enes: Did you consider using an IDE or SATA to USB adapter and running the fix on the infected drive via a separate computer? That would prevent the malware from loading itself into the system since youre not booting from that drive, or even that computer. Sure its more

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Re: Demons hi cx2,removing malware isnt just deleting the malicious filesits also repairing registry and OS damage caused by the infection. I would still have to run a boot cd for malware for this reason. Aditionally, removing the drive from the pc would be a hassle each time. Also, its

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Re: Demons Ugh, Ive heard back in the day they had tools that would read the BIOS. There is the possibility of using a reading device like Google Goggles, which seems to do a pretty decent job of reading text, but screens do this funky effect that may make it more difficult to do so

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Re: Demons Hi.It could be available in windows 10. With narator. Well I hope so. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=195707#p195707 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https

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Re: Demons Rachel, you dont need to justify your feelings, not even to yourself much less us. They probably cant be justified in the rational sense anyway so trying will just cause you more stress. You want what you want and thats an end to it. Its how you manage this want that matters

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Re: Demons Hi.CX2 I really like your posts and find them very interesting to read.Youre right that labeling yourself can only mess you up in the end. I thought i might have been gay in school too, turns out that was just a faze But I never labled my self as that thing or this thing, I

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Re: Demons Id say that Brad is right.You may have many people on your class or at your work, but they seem only to help you, and not all of them, or less can be your real friends. I call a friend, someone who comes and stays with me for hours and we have a lot of conversation and we

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Re: Demons Judging yourself for something you have no control over or cant change is never a good idea. Some of the Things I enjoy would by most people be considered weird or probably even creepy, and it took me years to accept that part of myself...Heck, Im not really fully accepting

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Re: Demons Judging yourself for something you have no control over or cant change is never a good idea. Some of the Things I enjoy would by most people be considered weird, and its taken me years to accept those parts of me...Heck, Im not really fully accepting it yet I guess, but Im

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Re: Demons Judging yourself for something you have no control over or cant change is never a good idea. Some of the Things I enjoy would by most people be considered weird, and its taken me years to accept those parts of myself...Heck, Im not really fully accepting them yet I guess, but Im

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Re: Demons hi turtlepower17,it is true that some things do not require safe mode. However I wanted to go into the pc malware cleaning business, which requires constantly booting into safe mode, using boot Cds e.g sardu, UBCD4win. Whenever possible, malware cleaning should be done in safe

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Re: Demons Hi.I dont know much about this but isnt there a talking windows installation that helps you boot into safe mode? URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=195633#p195633 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames

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Re: Demons Yo,I had a weird story last two years.Here there are three kinds of schools which we have to get a diploma or certificate or whatever you wanna call it. The primary school, the high school or college and university. Only primary school offers special items or lessons for blinds

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Re: Demons You know, this is just my opinion, but I dont really think theres anything wrong with being a girl or a boy. This is why Ive always supported transgender individuals (outside of my own struggles with identity) because I mean fundamentally theres nothing wrong with being a boy

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Re: Demons You know, this is just my opinion, but I dont really think theres anything wrong with being a girl or a boy. This is why Ive always supported transgender individuals (outside of my own struggles with identity) because I mean fundamentally theres nothing wrong with being a boy

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Re: Demons You know, this is just my opinion, but I dont really think theres anything wrong with being a girl or a boy. This is why Ive always supported transgender individuals (outside of my own struggles with identity) because I mean fundamentally theres nothing wrong with being a boy

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Re: Demons hi,my views on blindness: contrary to what most blind people and blindness organizations claim, blindness is a disability. It is not a minor inconvenience. It is not like hight, eye color or hair color. It is a serious disability. More serious than deafness in my opinion. Though

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Re: Demons I read this topic earlier and it keeps coming back to me, so I feel like I aught to, in the spirit of things, offer what advice/thoughts I can.Please take this in the spirit its written; I intend no insult/disrespect to anyone.Rach Rach, you spoke a lot of having a logical side

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Re: Demons Well said John. I completely agree. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=195457#p195457 ___ Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin

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Re: Demons @enesId say that youre right. Its almost the same for me in Albania, because we have almost the same culture and customs. I dont know why hes willing to take away his vision, I really dream to have it one day. But if I dont have it, its not a problem to be considered, I used

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Re: Demons hi,I agree with afrim.blindness causes social isolation. People will iether think your not knowledgeable about any subject or multiplely disabled. They will avoid you as a consequence. Some things that are trivial for sighted people are tough for me. For example, walking from

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Re: Demons Hi Enes,Interesting points youve brought up.Here in America, technical jobs are considered the standbys for blind people. In other words, its becoming almost stereotypical for blind people to work with computers in some capacity. Whether thats working in some kind of call center

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Re: Demons Rachel, I dont have anything useful to contribute to how you handle your struggle. I frankly dont understand what youre going through, which isnt the criticism it may sound like, its simply and literally the case that I do not have such impulses that I feel are beyond my

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Re: Demons Im not quite sure what your going through. I dont mean to sound rude, and if I do, I sincerely appologize. On the other hand, reading how you felt about us blind people made me feel very good. Im not saying that in life I dont have anyone that is accepting of me or nice to me

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Re: Demons To those who are saying that they cannot empathize my condition, I can understand completely. Like I said it probably is BIID and I dont really understand the mainstream form of self amputation. That doesnt make sense to me. I know there are other ways that people can

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Re: Demons To those who are saying that they cannot empathize my condition, I can understand completely. Like I said it probably is BIID and I dont really understand the mainstream form of self amputation. That doesnt make sense to me. I know there are other ways that people can

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Re: Demons Hey Rach Rach, I sent you a private message. I never notice when people send them to me, so I figured I should just go ahead and let you know. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=195533#p195533 ___ Audiogames

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Re: Demons Hi.@CX2You no, I never thought of finding a partner who liked video games.Ill be honest. Ive Always thought my chances of finding a partner were impossible.I had a girlfriend, a couple months ago, it didnt work out so I said it had to end. Im not sad about that, but what Im sad

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Re: Demons Ive come to think of visual impairment as, say, the powerball on the life lottery. If youre the sort who would tend to work hard and win at life, blindness will only make you work--and win--harder. If youre on the other end of the curve, so too can the negative be amplified

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Re: Demons Ive come to think of visual impairment as, say, the powerball on the life lottery. If youre the sort who would tend to work hard and win at life, blindness will only make you work--and win--harder. If youre on the other end of the curve, so too can the negative be amplified

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Re: Demons Rach Rach, Im glad that being in this community has been so helpful. This group is indeed a unique one, haha. I dont have any experience with amputee identity disorder, but I do feel it might be at least related to what youre experiencing. CAE, this is what I thought about too

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Re: Demons Rach Rach, Im glad that being in this community has been so helpful. This group is indeed a unique one, haha. I dont have any experience with amputee identity disorder, but I do feel it might be at least related to what youre experiencing. CAE, this is what I thought about too

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Re: Demons Hail all. Rachel, it goes for you, Aprone and other sighted folks who are on a quest to understand the visually impaired and/or blind comunity. What Im about to say can be true both for personal and for a developers perspective. But like Rachel, I may use the words that truely

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Re: Demons A demon, daemon or fiend, is a supernatural, often malevolent being prevalent in religion, occultism, literature, fiction, mythology and folklore. The original Greek word daimon does not carry the negative connotation initially understood by implementation of the Koine δαιμόνιον

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Re: Demons I suffer from depression myself so Id like to start by saying if at any point your situation changes and you do feel like you may harm yourself in some way or if it really starts bothering you please do seek professional advice, it doesnt make you unstable just human. I was born

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Re: Demons Theres a lot to digest in your post, but, you know, one of the last things I read before coming here involved lots of parables about how, if we can accommodate trans people, then lets accommodate them instead of being mean about it because its hard to understand those sorts

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Re: Demons Theres a lot to digest in your post, but, you know, one of the last things I read before coming here involved lots of parables about how, if we can accommodate trans people, then lets accommodate them instead of being mean about it because its hard to understand those sorts

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Re: Demons I understand that your feelings arent rooted in depression, noting that the stress caused by such feelings may contribute to depression rather than being caused by it. That said your impulses sound very like urges to self harm or commit suicide by those who have such impulses

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Re: Demons Hello,Sorry guys If I’m not clear enough, because my native language is not English.Why would you take away your vision? Others dream to be sited one day.I have some blind friends who feel very uncomfortable and unsatisfied because of their blindness. Another tendency of some

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Re: Demons Its not really like I want to be blind, in fact a huge part of the tension involved with feeling this way is the exact opposite of wanting to be blind. I think cx2 kind of has a somewhat right idea that its an urge rather than a wanting. It feels like a forbidden fruit that my

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Re: Demons Hi rach rach and others.I cant say I fully understand this topic but Im here if you want to talk. I dont know if Ill be any help but I can at least try. My skype is brad1647And email bradleybro...@live.co.ukI dont want to upset you and I doubt I will by asking so Ill ask. Why

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Re: Demons Its not really like I want to be blind, in fact a huge part of the tension involved with feeling this way is the exact opposite of wanting to be blind. I think cx2 kind of has a somewhat right idea that its an urge rather than a wanting. It feels like a forbidden fruit that my

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Re: Demons Rach Rach, Your explanation of the 2 ways your brain are fighting each other makes absolute perfect sense to me. I deal with the same sort of internal struggle. I think a lot of peoples minds feel unified until they are put into a rare situation where 2 halves disagree

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Re: Demons brad wrote:So Id like to know why youd like to be blind or *shudders* cut out your eyes. Why cant you just be rachel, the person who helps the blind and helps those that need it? Changing your body shape or removing certain parts of it, wont change you and I doubt it would

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Re: Demons Let me first start by saying that most of what Im about to say relates to my own personal experience. It is not my intention to be offensive, or dismissive, as I sure hate when people do that to me.Having said that, I want to share what I think is a similar experience to yours

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Re: Demons Hi.Time to tell my story, I think.Its meant to be quite childish in parts. Ill explain more about that later.It was a cold and dark night... what! it was.Well it was around seven in the evening and it was cold, and dark. I was walking with my mum to the doctors for some reason

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Re: Demons TurtlePower, I have a female friend who has had bad experiences because she gets on better with men than women. She had issues with their girlfriends seeing her as competition, thinking she was trying to seduce their boyfriends. Frankly I just think some people are what would

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Re: Demons hi.@cx2 thing is, blindness is a pain in the arse for those that have had sight before, I think.I think those that are blind are just used to this life. The ups and the downs of it all.Someone once asked me, if I could get my site back, would I do it. I said straight away

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Re: Demons Hey, I thought I would just let everyone know that I feel a lot better about myself than back on Thursday. I think I got over this pivotal point in my journey. I really appreciate your words. Ill try my hardest. I promise. Use my demons for good. I know that I feel

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Re: Demons Hi Rach Rach.No problem Were all here to help one another. Sometimes we agree with things and other times we might not. But thats the point of a great forum like this. URL: http://forum.audiogames.net/viewtopic.php?pid=195397#p195397

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Re: Demons Brad, a few points.First noone ever said its wrong to look at people of whatever gender youre attracted to, apart from potentially a few extreme religious types. What is wrong is full on ogling, essentially its the difference between an appreciative glance and a full on stare