> All these things are what I do to cure my periods of
> depression whenever they hit.

> Try some of these! It might help! :)

Thanks to everyone for the responses (sorry for making you repeat
yourself Deanna. :) ... If I don't reply to your post specifically,
it's not for lack of grattitude, just trying to address a few specific
thoughts and get on to some other things on my list for the day.

In particular, a few different people mentioned getting out in the
sun, camping, hiking etc. general outdoor type activities... Part of
the problem with this is that, while I enjoy being outside, I don't
generally enjoy being outside by myself... Tiff is heavy set and has a
bad back, and hiking isn't liable to be a real good activity for the
both of us to engage in together, since it's liable to be painful for
both of us (I'm _waaaaaaaay_ out of shape -- I haven't excercized
regularly since boot-camp which was about 7 years ago, before I got
involved with CF).

I'm 5'3", ~190lbs -- most of the extra weight is between my hips and
my solar plexus. I've always found excercise to be painful and
unrewarding... and so it's difficult for me to adopt it as a routine,
no matter how much people tell me it's necessary.

But moreover, getting back to the sun / outside thing... the problem
with hiking or just being outside is that "relaxing" outside isn't
relaxing for me... Lying on the beach != fun. It has the potential to
be enjoyable and rejouventating -- but that potential is only realized
if I'm with a group of friends... The problem is that what's missing
in my life isn't something I can just go somewhere and find -- it's
not something I can run up to the drug-store and buy. What I'm missing
in my life is a community -- a group of friends living nearby, who's
lives are mutually immersed in each other. Our culture (particularly
our technology) has destroyed a lot of this over the years, so that,
while they do still occur naturally in a few places, naturally
occurring communities are no longer wide-spread, which explains my
interest in intentional communities. ( http://www.ic.org --
www.zendik.org is a good example of a place I'd like to go if I didn't
mind getting arrested ) ... Except that none of them are accessible to
me either -- they tend to fall into two categories -- those which
require an expensive buy-in (which I can't afford) and those which
would require me to give up my career to be involved in their cottage
industry (which would get me arrested). So in lieu of being able to
attain access to an intentional community, I focus the majority of my
energies on my career in the hopes that some day all my hard work will
pay off and I'll be able to resolve the divorce / child-support issue
in a way that might allow me to attain access to an intentional
community. (Because of course, even when I can afford material
posessions, they bring me little or no comfort.) So when I'm trying to
"relax at the beach", I get to thinking about what it is that I really
want in my life (a community) which gets me thinking about why I don't
have it, which gets me thinking about the problems I'm not addressing
in any way by "relaxing on the beach". Hence, "getting more sun" is a
deterrent to resolving depression.


s. isaac dealey     954.522.6080
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