>Thanks Tim... Of course... when I said "asside from Prosac" I wasn't >really thinking "other drugs". :P
Yeah I know. Just a little levity :) I really am on Paxil though :( >You know, a gun range is actually a fairly attractive idea to me just >as a means of letting off steam... I'd be concerned about the expense >tho... and I'd rather rent a gun than own one... is that viable? are >there gun-ranges where you can rent the guns? There are ranges that will rent usually. You should look around online. You're in Florida right? That's a Class III state. You could probably even rent machine guns. >Or with a stolen liver. :) Ghod I only wish. >Yeah, but that was part of the reason I was concerned about my >state... because I usually want more sex when I'm depressed, as a >comfort you know... but this time I'm finding it difficult to be >interested in sex. I'm not turned off by the idea, just apathetic >toward it. I've heard it's easier for women, but it's kinda difficult >for a guy to participate enough to get the endorphines when you're in >that state... Porn? Lots of porn? >I'm lost. It was a reference to moshing/slam/pogo dancing. >I can occasionally indulge in "mindless entertainment" ... not for too >long tho... If I sit for too long I become agitated by my lack of >progress on personal programming projects. The goal of transitioning >from "wage slave" (otherwise known as "someone's bitch") to "has what >appears to be at least minor influence in the shape of his own life" >is really important to me... which goes back to the pending divorce, >the child support and the larger reasons for my being depressed in the >first place. If the child support award weren't so high, I wouldn't >consider myself a "wage slave", but there's no way for me to do >anything about it without earning even more than I earn now, and even >if I did earn enough to do something about it, the odds are greater >that my attorney would stab me in the back and I'd be worse off than I >am now (or no worse off, but no better, plus being out the money). I actually meant snuggling with a loved one. The TV is just background noise. I find being physically close, yet non-sexual can be a great release, and remind me of why I am out here busting my hump. I understand the wage slave thing, ghod do I ever. Have you thought of relocating? I know this area needs CF people bad, and the salaries are pretty good. The environment can be really sucky, which is why I gave up so much money to come work at Teratech. >I didn't think so... Why? Do you grow on trees? :) So far I think I only grow on people. They are usually very anti-me upon first meeting me. They come around though :) Tim ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~| Discover CFTicket - The leading ColdFusion Help Desk and Trouble Ticket application http://www.houseoffusion.com/banners/view.cfm?bannerid=48 Message: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=i:5:165909 Archives: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/threads.cfm/5 Subscription: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=s:5 Unsubscribe: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/unsubscribe.cfm?user=11502.10531.5 Donations & Support: http://www.houseoffusion.com/tiny.cfm/54
