> > I ask because I'm really not sure if the TMSP is doing me any good > > anymore, I don't like doing long progs either, I used to but now it > > makes me feel shite, really thick-headed, tired and angry, nothing > > easy or relaxing about it. > > These are not unusual symptoms for someone with an imbalanced > arising, but let these people consult with you, they are extremely > detailed, authentic and have helped a lot of damaged people.
Just as an alternative, non spiritual viewpoint... Perhaps you don't need any more passive relaxation. There may be nothing wrong with you that needs fixing. Your symptoms also match dissociation caused by too much passive relaxation. When I stopped meditating about 19 years ago it felt a little weird for a few days and I sometimes had to take an afternoon nap since I was used to resting then. But in less than a week I felt great and have never desired the state again. I found that dissociation caused me to be a little detached from my feelings in a way that muffled them a bit. I enjoy the clarity non meditation has brought. I don't think meditation is a bad thing for everyone, but I also don't think it is a good thing for everyone. Unless you are really committed to the belief in gaining enlightenment through meditation, you might just want to find out for yourself if meditation really serves your current needs. Not meditating changes you and surprises you as much as meditating does. I enjoyed meditating for the 15 years I practiced. I never missed one and rounded for about 3-4 years total. But my life as a non meditator is satisfying enough that I would not consider going back to the meditation influenced functioning. I am writing this just to let you know that there is a satisfying life after TM. When people get into TM heavily I think there can be a belief that non meditators are living less full lives. For me that has not been the case, it has been the opposite. --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Vaj <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > > On Nov 19, 2007, at 12:57 PM, hugheshugo wrote: > > > Vaj, can you enlarge on this a bit. Who is this "we" doing the > > investigating? > > The people I was referring to was a yogini and lineage-holder named > Joan Harrigan and her guru from the Saraswati order, Swami > Chandrasekharanand of Rishikesh. They are some of the few, possibly > the only people in the west who are doing the difficult work of > helping people who had imbalanced or dead-end kundalini awakenings > resolve their issues. Two of the most famous ex-TMers that I know of > who have utilized and praised their services are Earl Kaplan and Dr. > John Doulliard. Doulliard was at one time a movement big wig, and an > expert in marma therapy. Here's what his wife said (emphasis mine): > > I've known Swamiji and Joan for two years now and can honestly say > that they are the real deal. In this day and age of a hundred guru > wanna be's offering everything under the sun it's rare if not next to > impossible to find sincere, authentic, and truly competent spiritual > teachers with only your progress and best interest in mind. Their > retreats are truly life changing and transformational and their > comments on your personal history are worth the price of admission > alone. I've had many blessings in my life with six beautiful and > healthy kids and a wonderful husband but if one is a true spiritual > seeker there isn't any outward or physical blessing that can pacify > the soul's yearning like the discovery and experience of the real > spiritual progress that they offer. > --Ginger Doulliard, Boulder, Colorado > Wife and mother > > They are out of Tennessee. If you have any questions whatsoever, I'd > recommend any TM or TMSP practitioner to read Joan's _Kundalini > Vidya_ or to contact these people for a consult. > > > > > I ask because I'm really not sure if the TMSP is doing me any good > > anymore, I don't like doing long progs either, I used to but now it > > makes me feel shite, really thick-headed, tired and angry, nothing > > easy or relaxing about it. > > These are not unusual symptoms for someone with an imbalanced > arising, but let these people consult with you, they are extremely > detailed, authentic and have helped a lot of damaged people. > > What many people do not realize is that certain gurus can utilize > unbalanced awakenings to their advantage. One of these ways is to get > the students to cultivate siddhis. >
