Curtis wrote: > When I stopped meditating about 19 years ago it felt > a little weird for a few days and I sometimes had to > take an afternoon nap since I was used to resting then. > But in less than a week I felt great and have never > desired the state again. I found that dissociation > caused me to be a little detached from my feelings in > a way that muffled them a bit. I enjoy the clarity non > meditation has brought. > You stopped TM when you lost your innocence and began the practice of Guru Yoga, as pointed out by Mr. McGurk. This probably happened about the time that you decided to become a teacher of TM. In reality, you have never stopped meditation, for the simple fact that you never began meditation.
In fact, you were born into a state of meditation, but as you grew older you became dissassoiated with your real state - your mind became slowly identified with the material world of name and form, until it became totally overshadowed by your material nature. When you started TM you probably transcended for a few moments - this would be called a flashback to your previous state of divine innocence - but then you stopped transcending and somehow became involved in Guru Yoga, following the Marshy. Your spiritual life would have probably evolved over time if you had remained in that innocent state. Instead you must have developed a hankering for intellectual knowledge which then began to overshadow your enlightened state. With time you became more and more enmeshed in the material world, thus losing your contact with the transcendent. Now you only see through a glass darkly; your previous clear state has now become almost lost due to your being caught up in the material world. You've lost the abilty and the opportunity to burn up your karmic accumulations. Your only hope now is to find a true spiritual teacher.
